A New Perspective

My friends & My life

Recently my life have been twisted. A life that you call it happiness or something that spice up your life. Whatever that will bring me through i will face it. I don't have expectations. Expectations in your life just lead to giant disappointments. i'm an independent gal after all haha.

And look back the past few days my friends seems to be much more hapPi then i do. For watever reason i also wish them Happi too. Yet i realise one of my good friend seems to be facing an unknown "sickness". I just want her to know that I've had disappointments and heartbreaks and setbacks and roles I didn't get before, but something always came along that either made me better or was an even better role. Each of us has an inner thoughts that we can unfold if we will just have the courage to admit what it is. And the faith to trust our own admission. The admitting is often very difficult. I'm truthful and straightforward to the point of being tactless sometimes. But I'm a Gemini. I tot i could help out of been my friend listening ears sharing their happiness or sorrows. But i realise the most difficult thing in the world is to know how to do a thing and to watch someone else doing it wrong, without commenting. Many a times i wanted to share my views or send a message to my friends certain things that are advisable which maybe useful for them, but is often the hardest situation to say it out. Especially when these people are your good friends. If only they knew my good motive i wouldnt have been mistaken by them for my unintentionally action n unrudely speech.

I know i cant please most of my friends & love ones. Yet i still couldnt please them enough. Many things is out of my own control and means. Understanding is all i need. I just hope my friends can truly share their tots when they preach to me or consider me as their friend. Do you think i care if you are just a nobody to me? It only hurts your good friends around you rather then yourself. Human being is selfish but never to your closest kin or bestest friend. Take it as i m demanding and unreasonable for all that i 've done. Cus i'm just been myself honestly.My friends & love ones tend to dont understand me but for all this i 've never take it to hard cus life is just too short to be fear & anger for anything. Is either u r horrible or miserable. I m just the miserable happI one.