Lost patience...

Why....................

Some updates...

X mas is over yet rain is still showering like cats & dogs...sign...when will this mercy rain be over? Fortunately for us no any major disaster accept experience a few hrs of eletricity power cut or a minor earth quake which is not around my area. Where as country like msia is facing flooding problem...no homes..no food..and helpless. Hope all this will be gone soon and everythings back to normal.

I've enojyed my x mas eve although there was some restriction to make noise in the hotel room yet everyone's pressencs make it feel special. I even receive my 2nd roses again which i quite like the color this time. Couldn't ask for more & no more flowers for me haha. I've received lotsa of Love & concern from my family members, friends who truly cares & people ard me. I felt cared for & is glad to know people around me cares & misses me. My x mas eve is occupied & hopfully new year day too.

Off mood lately...kind of depressed ...but i never fail to share my tots to anyone whose close to my heart & understand how i feels. Thanks for those who had been listening to me & all my grantings. All i need is some secure in myself.

A brand new year coming & hope everyone enjoys their Happy Holidays!!!!

Peko & Poko x'mas cake!!!! So lovely=)can see cannot eat=()....

Jingle bell on the way...

Yeh!! waiting patiently for tmr nite mini x'mas eve party with my lovely friends and love ones. Will be exchanging gifts & playin some games s usual. Just that event will took place in a special place too....shall not reveal haha. As this year will also be a special x'mas season for me cus i will be spending my 1st x'mas eve with bearx2 & njoy the moment like everybody out there. Despite Dec raining season i suppose everyone still have the festi mood to celebrate & partying out there. Just a wish from me to santa clause: Can i just have the next two days a slight rain will do? X'mas is all about sharing, giving and gathering with your family, friends & love ones. Hope everyone will gain some festi weight during the x'mas season & may your wishes comes true...*shine And for one of my friend who couldnt join us due to her posted schedule so wana wish her merry merry x'mas and hope she have a wonderful flying trip while she has to work. Will enjoy the gathering on her behalf and hope to see her soon..bless everyone.

wow..

Look these was what my sister did during the rain...using her finger jus to draw out blu blu on the window panel...look so cute n real..simply took down the scene before it fades slowly...hehe...

hooRay...

Yeh! Two more weeks to christmas....hope there is some x'mas atmosphere here hehe. Wana bring in some x'mas mood in before everyone starts slacking and tired of their working life:)
Be ready to count down for reen B'Day too!

Little sheep got so powerful?

Haha i got this picture from him and dont know where he source this picture from. But honestly is a good one cus it really best describe me. Why? Cus little sheep sometimes will behave like that giving teddy bear a hard time getting along happily. Never tot little sheep also can be so powerful haha=P One day we shall see the outcome of the teddy bear & hope still survive...

Teddy Bears on X'mas Tree....

m i being too simple-minded?

Sometime i tot being simple minded makes oneself think less and not be bothered by too much of what is exactly happening around you. But the fact is till now then i realise many things i dont see or i dont know is not as simple as i tot. Yet by the time you knew it, it would have been too late. And it turn out to be a disappoinment & disguise to you.

There is many things you see or heard doesnt mean it is the fact. For eg. many a times i just believe the words and problem that is happening around my friends & loved ones. But how many a times do you actually believe what they said? For me i can say 8/10 i would chose to believe. Especially ur good friends and loved ones. Even it isnt the truth you would still chose to believe. People whom u trust the most tends to be people you care n dependant the most. If one day he or she turns out to be otherwise?...how would you feel? Me? Like a dark shadow cast over my head. And is time to reflect and change my mindset of human being.

Advice is not to be too simple minded. Things are not as simple as you think. Look into a bigger picture & think wiser would be the best for one self by not letting yourself been deceived.

Being considerate dont always bring you kindness in return...Blu Blu wif his OUT A THIS WORLD CHIPS....is nice can try...Vinegar taste

Sign....

Feeling so lousy again...i really need to do something to make myself happy...

Be positive & enlightened. I need to relax & be less hard on myself. Taking things easy.

Balancing my own life is hard. Going through spiral of depression like pms, mood swing, seeking slience and wana be alone. Let my mind in a rest mode...

But not forgetting to thanks beary for the advance exclusive x'mas gift...will be very meaningful for u, my friends & family. And Thank you for your high tolerants on me. i will take it easy on myself. tata.

Two days ago...

Yeh! It's May May 22nd B'Day...We went to tampines stadium a japanese $0.99 sushi restaurant & was a recommendation by sharon who saw it over a TV variety show. It was quite a cosy & well decorated japanese restaurant. I think for the 1st time customer will try out because of it's 0.99cts per sushi plate attracts them. Is rather cheaper than those branded sushi outlet which cost ard 1.9 per plate? I not sure, but the choice of selection not much. Anyway these was what we did for our B'Day girl that special night...too bad siyong & XJ couldnt make it if not it will be a complete... May she stay HappY & this lovely always=)

New family member

Tada!!! new marine life in my house!!! These "V" shape glass was bought by my sister over at Tampines IKEA. Dont know why she got the sudden urge to buy this glass vase and tot of raring little Tetra inside. It's her 1st time raring fish and for a good start i think she simply love the glass vase and hope to see sometime special inside other then just normal flower in the vase. And i see is a new hobby for her now. But sadly to say she bought 10 Tetra ytd and till this morning left only 3 survived. I dont have any experience or knowledge on what kind of fishes is suitable to be rare in such a small vase. Yet i m sure is possible if you observe more & give them more attention? haha still not good enough i suppose. Well watever it is hope this remaining Tetra dont disappoint my sis & live happily inside there new cosy home. Welcome them.

:)

Another month for us. Finally we get to watch A Battle Of Wits starring Andy Lau the 'Ge Li' lone warrior. I personally feels that most guys would prefer this type of movie cus is all about man fighting bravely over the battle of war for power & desire.

My week end was quite a meaningful one cus this early afternoon i went to attend my brother's ex tutor wedding Hi Tea Lunch held at Raffle Town Club. 1st time having invitation in the afternoon compare to those usual wedding night dinner. It was a buffet type free and easy lunch over the side of the tables. The layout was the same as night dinner, just that the concept was a buffet kind. The bride groom & bride mate looks lovely & envious. It was all about your closed ones around you, sharing your happy moment on such an important day which will be an unforgettable occassion for your whole entire life. I think that marriage is really another walking route to a new life which two hearts crossed the path. But all this needs $$$$ haha...no $$$ no wedding. So young people better start saving now and think what you really want in your future to come.

-.-

Ahhhh..suddenly got a stomach pain. My sis say must be gastric pain. I dont even got common gastric pain how can it be? I just feel bloated but after applying chinese medication oil i feel a bit more relief. Hope tmr i will be fine.

And looking back at some of my pictures uploaded on sharon msn blog, i notice at that time i was quite thin compare to NOW! I seems to have grow a bit fatter after i started working. Omg!!! Really couldnt believe these, i think i've gain some weight although i never really go n take my weight mesurement. Perhaps when u start to work, esp those staying inside office. You tend to seat more, eat more & grow more. Aiyo really must exercise to burn some of the unwanted fats down. Dont wana fall sick with any kind of illness. Is really bery costly n wastful. Yummy roast duck meat n pork...mouth drooling :).....

Movies to Catch!

Haha wana know what i did for my week end? Well didnt get to meet up with him for a week and finally just the one n only precious saturday we met up had lunch n head down to Vivo City for a movie threat. And 1st time i could see the cinema queue so scary that the people can queue until out of the bounderies. I was kinda of reluctant to watch after i saw such a long queue. But we spotted the AXN machine & decided to do our booking over that machine even thou there was a mini queue still at least was shorter one compare to the ticketing boot. He wanted to watch Battle of wits but the timing slot was fully book one after the next time slot. So we decided to watch Happy Feet although i had a rough impression of the storyline wasnt that good cus was just singing & abt a penguine with special feet that could dance . Yet surprisingly it was a great, entertaining & touching show. Worth watching i could say 4/5 stars. And not forgetting the upcoming movie "Open Season" also a another entertaining cartoon movie. A hilarious story. All about animals haha. Anyway really njoy the movie and his company. Sorry that i m lazy at times to get my butt off the sofa =P forgive me hehe.( i know you will=P) Lastly congrats to averil for getting into the next round. Just want her to know no matter what is the result she is a star in our heart. Wish her all the best.

Like a bridge over troubled water...

Have u ever had this kind of feeling before? Anyway, I came across these interesting statement saying " Mens are appalling", "We never really mature, not on the inside. It's all just an act. Don't ever trust men. We're dreadful. Enjoy us, use us, abuse us, but never ever trust us." Have u ever suspect ur love ones ard you r true to u? i think it same goes to women who can be just as equal as how a men can behave. I personally thinks this is what i see in the society now & something that just spice up your life if u ever met such situation.

Recently i've rather felt weary & small, stepping one stone at a time. Hope i wont fall.

Design Cars...


First time went to see motorshow at suntex city so here are some pics taken and credit goes to XM...sony digital cam ho ho ho^^v Nice cars but my desire car not the few above:( cus i m more on commercial cars keke. Start dreaming again haiz...

HeLlo...

So tired that still got 4 more days to weekend! Why time is so slow? Yet i find e time passed so fast whenever i meet out my close friends & love ones. Why God dont give us more time to play!!!!Time really not enough for me to do many things i want but even if i got time i think i will use it to sleep & watch TV haha. Time just really files and each day i seems like growIng older & start to think a lot bout my own future sian -.- Anyway wana share this to you guys...

Cute? haha is from one of e toy machine which cost 2 golden coin for each set of 3. Me & sis simply finds it cute n interesting so we each had a set.

Hope i can smile like the dolls & feeling good each n every moment. I am feeling rather fortunate & blessed to have a family who dotes & take care of me, friends who shares my sorrows & of cos the fun & joy we had.
And my worries will soOn be gone...i will be bacK wIf my laUghter agAin haha

Remember to watch Channel U this comiNg Wed n look out for Averil Chan!!!

SiyonG's adVance B'Day

These was what i did last night with my usual good friends although some of them couldnt make it hope x'mas day can catch up with them =)...Firstly wana Thanks the b'day boy for the kind invitation dinner which i guess everyone has longed for or only me? haha anyway..Hope he like the gift & may his wishes come true.


And post x'mas pictures with the largest x'mas tree @ TakashimaYa haha...

Some of my thoughts

Looking at the mirror facing me reflects a girl with sad round eyes & a weak smile forced out.
Deep inside her she feels she is unique & has dreams to make it big for whatever she wish to achieve in work, love life, personal matters and contribution to the society for satisfaction...yet...Time is unripe & with no luck Only dreaming haha...

Questioning and searchin inner soul for the answer...

And this may be one of my answer cus i enjoy sharing my deepest thoughts to people who really cares & is interested in my life. Not those superficial people who simply ask for the sake of asking. Or selfish people who only talks about themselves. I simply miss the times sitting around coffee joint outlets with close friends, sharing, chating bout the past, present & perhaps future plans...the growing process together bonds each other. But with other commitments & hectic lifestyle, it's kinda of hard these days...kind of sad..but cant be sad, be glad cus it happened. haha tats wat wen finds it meaningful which sheng use it over his blog.

Jun Rong's B'day

Haha although we dont quite remember which day was his b'day yet we never failed to gave him an advance b'day celebration. haha thanks to Lilia...

My laughter's back haha

Last week periodically i went to ViVo City for the past 3 days watch movie look around & i agaga know how to get my way to any of the shops i want to go haha. Cus when i 1st went there, it was quite big that you might not remember how you 1st get back to the same shop & not knowing every outlet that you want to go. But it took me 3 days to be familiar with the whole shopping mall structure. Here what me n my family did...Makan haha very lucky to get a private room cus the main area seats were all occupied so left the VIP room good right?


an hour later....eat again haha...singaporeans like family & me, to us enjoying the finest ice-cream is the best haha..

k-ster

Weekends is a day to rest where we can put everything aside & relax, spend time & get together with family, friends or loved ones. Although i got to work half day on Sat-_- but i get to join my lovely friends after work for K! See how engrossed & hapPy they were...making all sorts of post haha...posers for the night...



Hope the gals had enjoyed themselves cus i did^^v cheerS~

26.10.2006

Been pretty restless & down on mood lately. It’s been a long time since I had a good laugh & light weight feeling.

Where has all the laughter & happiness gone to?

Weary of my job scope & miserable income. Working enviroment has a major transformation & morale running low . Fellow colleagues are bidding off one by one.

I long for a break . To sit down and think what I really want.

To plan & set attainable goals . To be happy & fulfilled.

Some random rants that is dying to burst out ...

I m deprived of sleep . I sucks-_-

Him:
Me helpless & sadden by the cries of tears, no amount of words of consolation could change the fact. And i couldn't do much to help relieve the problem & sadness.
But hopes this will be a beginning that doesnt part...when she truly apprecaites him.

Friends:
I'm rather selective of who my friends are. I cherish those good buddies of mine & they are already part of my life. Take that away from me and my life won't be in balance. The importance of friends.

Me:
Sometimes when i wanna talk about my feelings, no one is there to listen. And when they are free, I just dont feel like saying anything. The moment you feel like sharing it, it just vanish in the thin air & gone.

There is this saying:
The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you; It is when you dont understand yourself

I think i cant seem to understand myself lately...need to recharge, relax & reflect on myself. I will be fine...cuz goin for sinGing sessIon soon wif my Buddies Yeh!

Ipoh Trip

Last week end holiday i went to Ipoh with my closed one & friends. He & his friend actually planned before hand as we will spend our holiday eve to Ipoh and was assure that we agreed upon that trip. We were quite looking forward to it when he say we will be goin to a Cave Temple which sounds new & exciting to us. But he later told me everything got to be cancelled cus they need to work OT during the holiday for the extra income which sounds good too cus holiday pay is double isnt that temptating? Well is understandable so immediately i shut my mind off n not think about the trip anymore cus there will always be a chance to visit Ipoh. Yet to my disappointment he & his friend last minute told me they dont need to work OT & will continue the plan to Ipoh on that night. I was quite surprise cus i wasnt prepared at all to leave any soon when everything seems so sudden. Wen & me got to rush home in half an hours time just to get our important stuff n leave very soon cus we had to rush to JB and catch the last bus to Ipoh if not we shall be wondering around like homeless people =P Gladly to say we managed to get 1130 last bus to Ipoh but cost us RM65 bucks = $32.50 sing dollar. Normal days the rate should be RM30 but eve and public holiday extra charges for these bus agency. Very good calculation for them. Anyway since we are there doesnt matter bout the price anymore as long as everyone agreed n happY with it. It was a long 8 hours journey which i recalled back when my friends wen & me went to Genting HigHlands. But to my disappoinment was the so called Express bus we were taking wasnt that impressive & comfortable as i think. Looks good but the seats wasnt my type of comfort & the air-con will drip water down when it was shut off. He had a hard time sleeping n making himself comfortable on his seat which i felt helpless cus i cant do anything too. My conclusion was misa bus really can not make it-.-

Finally we reached Ipoh n headed to a budget hotel name Robin hotel sounds good ah? RM65 a day quite reasonable price n reasonable stay cus we jus need a shower room bed n air-con. But i think our spore Hotel 81 should be even better than that hehe. Soon we went to a coffee shop nearby for a meal 1st before we head off to the Cave Temple. As I notice while the guys are making their orders from the vendors, the people over there speaks no english nor simple mandrian jus their dialet cantonese language which non of our dialet is cantonese. But slight chinese language they could understand lets not say malay language. After all i'm sure everyone enjoyed themselves although its a long tiring journey back, but fortunately the bus back to spore was a FIVESTAR bus which was much more comfortable than the "Express" bus=P

My weekend!

Last weekend i've enjoyed myself with my closed ones. Went crab fishing and kite flying. Both was my 1st time although both i've seen people doing it before yet last weekend I finally got the chance to experience myself. The crab fishing was fun even though I dont get to bring home any crab 6.6 haha. The fun part was I actually get to learn to drop the net attached with a smelly fish head down the river and patiently waiting for the crab to be trap haha. The other part was I went Marina Bay for kite flying cum picnic. Despite a few really bad haze days we still went on with our plans arranged earlier on. Could say everyone was looking forward to it. We were relaxing & enjoying ourselves with all the yummy foods that each of us had made. But too bad Mayx2 & xiao jun not able to make it if not our 9 fairies will be complete for that day haha. I personally felt kite flying was an effortless interest but indeed an relaxing one. Learning how to follow the windy direction in order to allow ur kite fly high and far. But I definitely enjoy, like, the whole process. I enjoy my closed ones company and everything we did together. As long as they enjoyed themselves and I'm happy in myself, my life and my day, that's all the truly concerns me. Waiting for the next outing session with them soon ^^v Some happy moments taken down by aka XM:

Yeh!

Congratez! To Averil little mermaid whom was one of the Top 24 among 40 hopefuls contestants held last weekend the Superstar Singing competition at Suntex City. So joyful and excited for her. Her singing skill was better than i expected cus i only heard my sis said she not only can sing but sings very well too. And to my amazed her voice was really fantastic when i heard it live over at Suntex City. Although there was quite tough contestants too she still managed to performed her best and presented her original style. A very modest and cheerful friendly girl i know. Just for your info she is my sis only best polymate cum friend. And if you guys happen to catch the upcoming Superstar show please look out for her Averil with the longest hair and sweetest smile k! Do support her over the phone calls k!

My friends & My life

Recently my life have been twisted. A life that you call it happiness or something that spice up your life. Whatever that will bring me through i will face it. I don't have expectations. Expectations in your life just lead to giant disappointments. i'm an independent gal after all haha.

And look back the past few days my friends seems to be much more hapPi then i do. For watever reason i also wish them Happi too. Yet i realise one of my good friend seems to be facing an unknown "sickness". I just want her to know that I've had disappointments and heartbreaks and setbacks and roles I didn't get before, but something always came along that either made me better or was an even better role. Each of us has an inner thoughts that we can unfold if we will just have the courage to admit what it is. And the faith to trust our own admission. The admitting is often very difficult. I'm truthful and straightforward to the point of being tactless sometimes. But I'm a Gemini. I tot i could help out of been my friend listening ears sharing their happiness or sorrows. But i realise the most difficult thing in the world is to know how to do a thing and to watch someone else doing it wrong, without commenting. Many a times i wanted to share my views or send a message to my friends certain things that are advisable which maybe useful for them, but is often the hardest situation to say it out. Especially when these people are your good friends. If only they knew my good motive i wouldnt have been mistaken by them for my unintentionally action n unrudely speech.

I know i cant please most of my friends & love ones. Yet i still couldnt please them enough. Many things is out of my own control and means. Understanding is all i need. I just hope my friends can truly share their tots when they preach to me or consider me as their friend. Do you think i care if you are just a nobody to me? It only hurts your good friends around you rather then yourself. Human being is selfish but never to your closest kin or bestest friend. Take it as i m demanding and unreasonable for all that i 've done. Cus i'm just been myself honestly.My friends & love ones tend to dont understand me but for all this i 've never take it to hard cus life is just too short to be fear & anger for anything. Is either u r horrible or miserable. I m just the miserable happI one.

Recall back wen & shan b'day

Pictures says everything see for urself haha..the pizza thingy is on shan b'day outing & since b'day gal felt she dont look good that night so as to respect her i shall not post her pic up keke. May this 2 lovely ladies stay truly haPpi n cheerfUL forever k! Best is meet your Prince charMing soon!

My blog

Hi people, upon my gd friend request i think i got to clarify why am i writing the way that some of you dont understand even i used very simple english to express my entries. But 1st thank you for ur comments n spontanous remarks. Actually what i want to say over my entries is to express to you guys most of the things that is happening around me. And is not entirely bout myself only. Mostly is about you guys and people i know. I cant expose the true event that had happened over here cus i value my personal life & to protect my friends privacy. Bascially everything that had happened i just wrote how i felt towards their lives, decision they made & my aim is to give them some ideas, a little bit of hopes, aimless dreams & full encouragement. You guys don have to read too much on what i think but perhaps forcus on the things u do n carefully decide it b4 it hurts u.

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?

Recently many things had happened. Be it good or bad lives got to move on. Some of my thoughts was a fear of the unknown keeps a lot of people from leaving bad situations. There are good and bad times, but our mood changes more often than our fortune. It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get. If everything is very important, then nothing is important. Dont give urself hard time cus not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced. I always believe there's a reason why you go through everything. We should know that we are all part of the whole, we are all together. And everything that we do affects each other. Some people come into our lives,leave footprints in our hearts,and we are never ever the same. It is the same as, its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment. Just have to accept it and ur life will be better.

Advance mini b'day celebration 4 Shanx2...

At first i tot we have agreed to have dinner at Takashimaya pepper lunch but shanx2 & friends would prefer pizza hut over pepper lunch. So we had pizza at lucky plaza which i didnt even notice there is an outlet there & is just infront of the lift-.-"
Anyway was quite a pleasure to see our b'day girl 1st time dressed so formally bcus of her training session jus before our meeting up. Could see she wasnt very comfortable with her formal outfit and e shape pointed high-heel shoe hee. But she does look neat with her hair bun up yet she kept saying looks ugly n old haha. Perhaps she dont bun her hair when she is at outside except at home cus nobody see keke. Anyway it was a nice n special dinner wif my usual gd friends talking and giggling over the dinner. Most importantly was please to see that shanx2 like the adiddas green original sport jacket we gave her. And may she wears the jacket will remind her of her "your lovely friends.com".

And next i wana say my curiousity had an answer cus an event has happened, upon which it is difficult to speak, and impossible to be silent. Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.The truth is cruel, but it can be loved, and it makes free those who have loved it. Most people stumble over the truth, now and then, but they usually manage to pick themselves up and go on, anyway. It is better to be feared than loved, if you cannot be both. I see when men love women, they give them but a little of their lives. But women when they love, they give everything. It is always wise to look ahead, but difficult to look further than you can see.It's not the events of our lives that shape us, but our beliefs as to what those events mean. Life is just like that what to do?

Changes?

After reading shanx2 current entry i think it makes me wanna write something bout "changes in life" or perhaps "Decision-Making". In life when we are a small kid decision making is always decided by our own parents or taken care of and somehow we wont felt the pressure or dilemma in any situation been made for us. But as we grown up everything is moving so fast and you can see changes in our lives that is when u felt u have to make choices of your own. The kind of life you want and decide the life of your own. Things change all the time, and they'll probably never be the same again. It's just the natural evolution of the human condition. Things change, and whatever it is is what it is. I mean, you try to start second guessing that, you either get rich or die broke. Nothing can be worst then that i suppose in singapore case. To me, living in the present means being aware of your conscious choice to focus on the past, present or future - it is not necessarily having to focus on the present. Only one thing has to change for us to know happiness in our lives: where we focus our attention. No one is in control of your happiness but you, therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.There maybe tough decisions we made but we shouldn't feel bad at all. There have been trade-offs every day, every month, every year. There's a lot that I missed and I do have regrets in that area. Accept everything about yourself I mean everything, You are you and that is the beginning and the end, no apologies, no regrets. Follow your heart never feel sorry for what you have decided:)

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?

My Sunday ^.^

Went to watch 1st Korean boy band SHINHWA concert at Indoor stadium. Two words to discribe 환상 (fantastic) & 피로한 (tired). Fantastic was bcus of their performance but i believe they can do better. Tired was bcus of the long waiting -_-". Hope Fly 2 the Sky can come to spore too but i think i m been hopeful only....haha.

The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it. Live everyday of your life & be content with it.

SenTosA BeacH 03.09.06

Recalled back last sundaY went to Sentosa siloso beach meet up with my colleague & their friend for a beach game. The weather in the late afternoon was rather real humid & hot. Yet the fun was there as far as i can bare =P Not to forget that day was also one of my unlucky day cus my favourite sandal the strip broken! I was so surprised cus i just told them how lasting my sandal had been wore by me till now. Unexpectedly a few mins later when we were rushing to went up the tram, my right sandal strip jus spilt like that. My sisters & sharOn reAlly no heaRt, cus they were laughing happily at me & my broken sandal like nobody business.I wasnt very upset bout it cus i think the strip itself was getting thinner and thinner so eventually it just went broken w/o any warning -.-" And i think it also gave me an excuse to get a new pair of slipper haha. My sister had chosen a green colour slipper similiar design as hers, well for me no comments as long as there is a proper slipper for me to wear. Dont wana walk barefoot like Tarzan-_-" For the night we had spicy noodle for dinner which i think is a new try out for me. The degree of hotness can be decided by urself which was very interesting when most of the guys would love to try it. But my advice to you is try it once and never upset your stomach again if your belly couldnt take it. Dont like one of my colleague next day looking so stress with an upsetting stomach until face turn pale haha =P






Lastly wana say A HaPpy BirThday to VirGo PeI wEn & my dEarest Brother. May you guys staY CheerfUl & Smily Virgo always.

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?

02.08.2006 The Guitar Night, Classic meets Pop

These was my 3rd time to watch guitar performance presented by 2 popular guitar musician. Organied by the TPGC members which XM belongs to one of them too that night. The location was at DBS auditorium tower 1. Anyway it was again XM kind invitation which i paid for it to listen & enjoy the music that night. The most interesting part was the special guest they 've invited whom was said to be Jacinta( currently spore idol judge)father which was unexpected to me. His indeed a very humours old man with great music talent. Overall was delighted that night thanks XM =D A few Pics taken that night by XM

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?

Lost my Voice with Resp Tract Infection

First time i had such a bad sore throat that is killing me that i hardly could sleep or breathe. I fight with it for the past 3 days and tot it will recover itself with all kinds of cough relief syrup i have in house but it still doesnt work. Still i had to pay the DR a visit to get the medicine for cure but yet have to depends on me who got to drink loads of water advice from the DR. Hope my voice will be back soon and pain will be ease soon.

Anyway gonna update on wat i did for the last weekend. Celebrated birthday for 2 of my friend which both falls on the same day but different age. Didnt had any surprises for them but the tots that comes from our heart. There's no time like the present. Do what you want to do, make yourself happy. And hope they are happy with a year older haha. Not to forget yesterday was one of my colleague IVY 23rd b'day. Had a mini food feast with Darren & Mrs yong kind sponsers hee. Glad ivy like the b'day gift cuz saw her expression looks astonish never tot she would receive customised mug from us. Well we always can come up with great ideas if only we think hard enough he he. Meaningful to her thou. Hope all VirGo people can stay lovely & cheerful always.

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?

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i'm sick!! So sickening. Last night i woke up in the middle of the night started to feel uncomfortable with my throat when i try to swallow. My throat was giving me a hard time cus i felt so pain each time i try to swallow down my saliva. Instantly i knew i'm down with a bad sore throat. What comes into my mind was bad curse must had falls on me cus my friend bao long also sick & i kept saying him so now it just happened so suddenly. So painful that i hardly wants to talk the next morning. Initially i thought i just got a bad sore throat and after my mom gave me a chinese pill from china which she conclude can cure any common sickness like flu cough & sore throat. So i had to believe her & hope it does cure. Later when i went to office i'm still looking fine althought i seems to look a bit reluctant when my colleagues and wen was talking to me. I didnt know i look so pale only after they kept asking me am i alright. i told them just a bad sore throat should be alright since i had taken my mom so called " miracle pill" haha. But things just got worsen when i started to feel cold and giddy on my head. When i stand up to walk my head start to spin & makes me feel unbalance. Perhaps was just my psychology thinking that made me feel weak or something. So i kept thinking i'm alright & will be fine. But not long i felt my whole body a bit warm then my unusual days. I asked my colleagues & wen to feel my forehead whether i m down with fever. Thought it wasnt too accurate, wen used the office ear thermometer to measure my temperature. And it shows 38.4 then normal body temperature. I wasnt very surprise cus when u r down wif sore throat, fever will come to you too. Depends on individual body. I was waitin for time to pass so that i can get home quickly pop a panadol & rest for a while. And not forgetting my dear brother made a glass of fresh orange juice wif a pinch of salt hoping to heal my sore throat. It does works so if anyone of u got a bad sore throat just do the same k!Alternatively you can also mixed salt with tap water & gargle your throat. Yet seeking doctor is the best if you are really sick. My cause of having a bad sore throat was because i ate too much heaty food & especially tasty crackers. Not forgetting i ate prata for the past two days too. Until i become like this -.- I've learned my lesson & dont wish to spend money to see doctor very costly. Sorry my friends cant join you guys for gifts. But i believe w/o me you guys still can make the best choice for our friend.

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Nothing like a drop in your heart

Recently heard from my sister that her long distance friend got married & had a very chubby baby when she remember chatted with him not long ago & the news jus break out. And can be quite surprise. The reason that he kept it until now is because his worried that my sister would not want him as a friend anymore. But he was so wrong that my sister didnt even think that way. She felt so happy and delighted that he got married and had a happy family. He even sent us some of his baby picture taken with his wife. Everything just turn out to be so beautiful & blessing for his new born baby. Time gradually files which some of us didnt even notice or want to make use of it. I believe that when someone crosses over, regardless how we choose to define them (negative, positive) they are met by other friends, relatives, energies, help them understand the life and lessons they learned, the experiences they have shared with others and the feelings they've shared with others.

My sister & i had chatted alot and exchanged a lot of our own thots and views. Then i realise my entire life has been an attempt to get back to the kind of feelings i've always wanted. The fact is that people are good, give people affection and security, and they will give affection and be secure in their feelings and their behavior. But is that what you really wants? I pay no attention whatever to anybody's praise or blame. I simply follow my own feelings. When I was a kid, I internalized everything, kept my feelings to myself. But now my gut feelings and my faith tell me that until God shuts a door, no human can shut it. Be true to urself and it's important not to indicate. People don't try to show their feelings, they try to hide them. Give me a break & soon my path will cross. Thanks sis for making me realise dreams do come true if you persistant. I will support you all the way.

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My Harsh Words...

Today i make my friend Pei Wen get upset with me. We had a exchanged of words and i think eventually my words came out to be a bit harsh or straight towards her. Somehow i know she got stomach cramp and i think makes her even mad at me. Immediately you can see her face turn black and when i try to talk to her she simply wants to ignore me. Instantly i knew something is not right. Well, i quickly apologise to her eventot i know is of no use but somehow someone has to make the first move to apologise. And since i am part of the cause i admit is my fault to make her turn upset. She say she is not angry with an unsightly face by not looking at you when u are talkin to her. Do you think she is not mad? I keep asking her if she is unhappy with me just tell me so. Or maybe i'm not worth to be mad with. Even lunch she didnt want to join me and that is her unusual self. Perhaps i've gone too far and she is suffering from cramp that make her mood swing like nobody business. I knew i should have kept my mouth shut and things wont have turn out this way. My words mean no harm to anyone cus i'm just been honest like anybody out there. If my words can hurt someone so easily then something must be wrong with me. I need to do some reflection thou. The best is not to speak if you are a down to earth person. As i think pei wen cant take my words for joke which i will not do it again. I finally see what kind of friends can take ur words for serious & just for laugh. For so long time since someone is unhappy with me. Cus i dont remember making people unhappy when i am afraid to see others unhappy. i'm too straight & no nice words can come out from my unkind mouth, bad girl.

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Is SunnY Day!

Did some uploading pictures to my image station & lazying around my home sweet home haha. Listened to one of my favourite singer Coco Lee song. Came across her previous "Promise Coco" album. There is this meaningful lyrics which i find it kinda of sad.

爱是那么真

爱一个人爱那么深
为什么呢我好天真
你说爱情是一种梦游症
难怪现在的我有点昏
我的呼吸你的眼神有许多是正在发生
我不必说话也不必问
爱真的骗不了人
爱是那么那么真
爱让一切都可能
你的名字在我心理翻滚
我不想否认我爱一个人
我自己问还有谁能让我开心让我心疼
不管你说什么我都肯
我会对你好认真
爱是那么那么真
爱也让我拿不准
请你给我真心的一吻
你能不能保证爱情的万能
我没有说你也没问
你也知道我要永恒
若真爱是一之海底针
我要千你的手往下沉
ending:总有那么一天时间会作证
爱是那么那么真

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.

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Swensens's Gathering

Yesterday it was great to meet up with my group of wonderfuL friends again since after our BKK trip. Althought i still not feelin very good yet i want to make it jus to see how are they. Especially lilia and JR. Ever since the last time we saw Lilia sending us off to the Airport we didnt have time to catch up nor chat over the phone. Siyong didnt make it cus his busy contributing service to the nation at singpore stadium haha & our precious Jasmine working hard till late didnt want to trouble her to travel & meet us since we going off soon. We had good chat over dinner and glad to hear that Shanx2 goin for her training in Sept. Hope everything will goes well for her. But before that you must take good care and not fall sick easily okie. Is tough for a newbie moreover u have to go through several training section & can be very tiring i suppose. So keep away junk food and oily stuff k!Must stay away from ur favourite food for the mean time hee.

Not forgetting "xiao Ming" finally send me those thailand doggy picture & i shall share wif u guys whats so special bout them ^^v

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HapPy 41st BirtHDaY mY HomeTowN Singapore

To express my thoughts for Singapore is for good or for ill, hope everyone will live happily & enjoy this very moment with our nation. I shall stand for freedom of thought and expression in a place where it has been trampled and penalized. haha.

Anyway i had a very bad stomach pain & was feeling very bloated early in the morning when i was about to leave my house for work. I tot maybe is jus a short pain maybe in the afternoon will feel better. But it got worst & i start to ponder what is happening to me. I couldn't work peacefully cus the pain is killing me. Is not any common gastric pain cus i dont have any history of gastric pain too, so it cant be that. I recalled back thinking i had been eating quite a lot since after my period, and the output wasnt quite equal to the amount of input i had. I knew my food must have stuck in between my intestine which made me felt bloated and wanted to vomit the whole day. As long as i sit down i dont feel like vomiting. But as soon as i stand up and walk a bit more i felt like vomiting. So horrible me. Thanks to pei Ong whom bought papaya milk for me to digest but i just couldnt drink any of that bcus i really had enough of water and felt even bloated. Is even worst if i drink it and vomit out, wil be a waste of ur effort lor. Next time buy me something nice to drink k? Papaya really not my kind unless i'm been force to eat hee. Later part i called my father to come and fetch me cus i know his knocking off and will b convenient to fetch me on his way home.

After that i slept & rest for a few hours still feeling uneasy, giddy & felt like throwing out, i quickly asked my sister to accompany me to our nearby clinic to see doctor. From what the doctor had examined, he conclude i had GASTRIC FLU which is similiar to common nose FLU just that mine is from the stomach. He advice me try to avoid Milk, Spicy food & dont know what cant remember, for the time being only. Glad is nothing serious. Hope my bowel will come back to normal & no more of this kind of feeling.

PS: Thanks my family & friends for your concern. Medicine works mircle haha.

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What's wrong with me?

Today, i went to work with a heavy heart feeling but the normal self me. Not mood swing nor upset. Is just a weird feeling when i woke up i dont seems to be alert like the usual days. Perhaps people have times in their lives when they are forced to examine themselves. And i am one of them whom starts to examine & explore myself. I start to think it is not what we get. But who we become, what we contribute... that gives meaning to our lives. It's not the events of our lives that shape us, but our beliefs as to what those events mean. I've anticipate things that are new & old to me yet i still cant achieve a balance in it. But in any event, you know, it certainly changed lives and it made us wonder where to go. Got to be stupid of me to think differently. Clear my mind & start doing the things i like will comfort my feelings back. I urge for the kind of eager feeling back!^^v

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What's Your Type of Guy/Girl

Try this out!

You fall hard and fast for the preppy man!

If he's conservative, friendly, and proper, he's just your sort! You fall hard and fast for the preppy man. Whether it's because of his handsome appearance or his impeccable hygiene, this man is a safe bet! He's fun and social without being immature or laddish. Your man is refined, associates with a refined crowd, and has a bit of an air tossed in for good measure. This suburban male is always put together well. He's simply cool, calm, and collected. Another quality that draws you to him is his ambition. He aims for success and follows the path that will lead him there. You respect how he always makes time for his friends and has a tendency to be a little silly. With this cheeky, well-groomed, man, you can rest assured that your life will be a dream!

what's yours?

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Jet Jet tryin to take a picture but kelian suddenly pop out omg!

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?

Haha This is me!!!me me me! But is me when i am a small kid hee. Very Cute right? Well at least i think so. Jus wanted to test uploading a picture. Dont abuse my childhood picture okie people. Be nice to her.

Amazing Thailand 21/07/06-25/07/06

Hello! People i m back!For the past few days got miss me? I bet dont have haha cus i can drag a month or 2 to post a new blog so is not amuse at all if i suddenly blog new story. Anyway didnt wanted to look forward to this trip cus i know it will end very soon( meaning good thing ends very fast). And it also means we are back to the reality society again =( Perhaps the good thing in life was just do the things u like and enjoy the urself the fullest. I think to begin i going to leave it simple & short cuz 5 days experience in thailand not much to say as most of it my lovely friend Lena had the full coverage in her blog so anyone interested can go n read k! But i'll do some touch up on my point of view that we did in thailand. I wanted to say the most happening thing we did was chose to watch TIGER show instead of "Ah Gua" show which i felt incredible. Cuz i ve watched "ah gu" show long time ago so something new for me would be nice. The overall 45 mins show can conclude that woman are so amazing & daring. Perharps human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to show remarkable talent which is nothing so easy to learn as experience and nothing so hard to apply.

We did mostly shopping and eating over there which is our main objective but regret to say our weekend shopping at Chatuchap not very fruitful. Didnt manage to conquer the wholesale market cus is too big and too many section to shop couldnt finish in a day or 2 lor. Children is strongly discourage to go because its jus too big that even adult have the risk to get lost inside. Hope next time can go back again and continue to bargin like hell haha. Over all i've bought quite some stuff for myself and close friends of mine. Not sure what whether they like it or not but is something from thailand by me, so i think also got no choice la hehe. Glad to say i did not exceed my barget and still left few hundred bucks back to spore haha. Maybe is a sign for me to go back again n spend more the next time haha. Not forgetting i bought a new bear name Jet Jet proudly presented by Jet Star Asia which i hope he can blend in with the rest of my sis soft toy esp that cheeky Blu Blu haha. His picture can be view over at Lena's blog and was smartly taken by shan digi cam. Thanks Shan! "sha wai di kar" (three bowl of pig leg)haha.

Lastly i would like to say the trip was a memorable and unforgettable one. And to my dear friends do you know the real test of friendship is can you literally do nothing with the other person? Can you enjoy those moments of life that are utterly simple? It is one of the blessings of true friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. So even though we did stupid things just to look for a friend we still willing to do it no matter how embarass we are. Hence, let us be grateful that we can cherish our friends & love ones around for the entire life. Tata!

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爱, 无力

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞变成了习惯
习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘
不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚

我 只 想 对着天空轻轻的呼吸
寻找我最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中
翻箱倒柜寻找记忆
有一种爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情
我的心如此无力


其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴过来手心

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友

I m back to the same thing? -.-
Well got to recall back what i've done for the past few weeks or a month? Anyway it wont be very convenient for me to update my blog frequently cus my sister needs to use the PC more than i do, for some personal reason-_- To begin i got to say for those whom read my latest entry below and i m sorry to say i m still working as usual w/o any heart feelings yet a bit of regret only. Perhaps is fated that i got to work for my Co.at least a year before i can pursue another different career path. But i told myself i can learn more with a longer time period so i can only say was not that bad afterall. Perhaps life, is not a having and a getting, but a being and a becoming. For the past few weeks went out with some interesting colleague for dinner & movie treat. Got to compliment them for been such a spontanous companion because if you dont meet the right people to relax & chill out situation can be quite boring haha. Somehow it develops a kind of friendship that you will cherish your friends even more around you. To be continued...

21/06/06 my leaVe day ^^v
Today i going back to school to collect my cert and do some catching up with my friends.Look forward to see miss princess linda's laughter,encouragement & her stories. Not forgetting eugene & ser lee joining too.Actually today is also a good reflection day for me. 1 month later i will be jobless,alone,dreamer,laugh like no body business and most importantly i will be happy and grateful to myself. I had this life that looked great on the outside, but on the inside I had a hole in my heart. Nobody will ever know or even understand why there is a hole in my heart and what happened except my room mate. You learn, right, a lot of people's problems why they get upset, why they get down, why they turn to drink is because they can't say one word and it's N-O, no. There were times when there were parts that I was sure I got and then I didn't, and I did get upset. But at this point, it doesn't affect me in the least because I know it just doesnt works on me. I don't get upset over things I can control, because if I can control them there's no sense in getting upset. And I don't get upset over things I can't control, because if I can't control them there's no sense in getting upset. You control your future, your destiny. What you think about comes about. In other words, one is responsible for one's own destiny and one has also the capacity for hewing out one's own destiny. Pain Hurts but its the memories that kill you. Sometimes I wish I was a little kid again....skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts! They say, 'forgive and forget', but if someone's worth forgiving, you'll never forget them. My room mate told me don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened. Life is as ruff as sleeping as boulders but when you finally find that one indescribeable person, it feels as if all weight is lifted off your chest and its as soothing and calming as lilies blowing through an oceans breeze. Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today. The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

It's my life!

Few days ago i also happened to saw a few meaningful quotes wana share with you guys:

"Truth and tears clear the way to a deep and lasting friendship."

"True friendship is never serene."
- Mariede Svign

18/06/06 Nite Cycling Cum Father Day

Want to know how my night cycling experience again? 3 words to describe interesting,unforgettable and mentally tortured.Why mentally tortured? we actually started out from EC->kallang river->esplanade->lau pa sat->sentosa->orchard->indoor stadium->24hrs macdonald near the stadium and lastly back to EC. We had our early BF at Mac & was earlier than anyone else whose still soundly asleep in their nice cosy bed -_-" even after the last match of the World Cup game. When we were at the mac everyones head was down on the table and looking like a zombie desprately shuting their eyes for a gd rest. Esp me i was dead like hell. Perhaps this time we set off too early and was quite tiring when the time was still early.The thing was even we wanted to return the bicycle early the easliest we can go back is ard 8 plus than the rental shop will be open. And that was the most mentally torture to me. Hanging out like a sleepless soul torturing myself again haha. Anyway the whole trip was more exciting than the 1st one. Cus we really cycle like no body business which means we mus look out for oncoming cars which there was no extra escorts like the 1st one. Enjoy it but not going for another one yet. Sharon spare me a year haha.

Not forgetting today is father's Day and my father side cousin wedding. May all father's stay faithful and honest to their spouse. And may truly couples had a blissful marriage with loads of joy and happiness.

It's My Birthday!
Last sunday which is my actual birthday, my usual best friends make out a dinner at Hotel Phoenix. Well our intention wasnt something too expensive but perhaps something different which was uncommon then before so nothing too posh for us.Anyway it was a buffet dinner which cost each of us around 26 bucks yet i didnt really eat much or could say i am not a buffet type of person no matter how hungry i am. My friends all look normal for a start even thought some of them make it just because was my B day which i truly appreciate that. Nevertherless, they still gave me a surprise with the waitress serving my bday cake from behind that really touched my heart. The most joyful thing was they gave me a Diving Mask and a printed made card with my picture on it! I was so happy that only tears can express how happy i am that night. I wana say thanks to my group of faithful friends who never fail to give me their best and so on. Not forgetting there will be more such bday cum gathering coming up..and hope many of them can turn up.

Lastly wana thanks the organiser for making this possible and had to come up with all sorts of white lies in order not to make me suspect her. But i want to tell this person something. Hope your lie can be a true one cus i care.

Ps: Hey kaho if you reading this again wana thank you for your B day card. And when you coming back? Why you are unreachable? Dont go MIA again. What are friendship for? take care