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Ahhhh..suddenly got a stomach pain. My sis say must be gastric pain. I dont even got common gastric pain how can it be? I just feel bloated but after applying chinese medication oil i feel a bit more relief. Hope tmr i will be fine.

And looking back at some of my pictures uploaded on sharon msn blog, i notice at that time i was quite thin compare to NOW! I seems to have grow a bit fatter after i started working. Omg!!! Really couldnt believe these, i think i've gain some weight although i never really go n take my weight mesurement. Perhaps when u start to work, esp those staying inside office. You tend to seat more, eat more & grow more. Aiyo really must exercise to burn some of the unwanted fats down. Dont wana fall sick with any kind of illness. Is really bery costly n wastful. Yummy roast duck meat n pork...mouth drooling :).....

Movies to Catch!

Haha wana know what i did for my week end? Well didnt get to meet up with him for a week and finally just the one n only precious saturday we met up had lunch n head down to Vivo City for a movie threat. And 1st time i could see the cinema queue so scary that the people can queue until out of the bounderies. I was kinda of reluctant to watch after i saw such a long queue. But we spotted the AXN machine & decided to do our booking over that machine even thou there was a mini queue still at least was shorter one compare to the ticketing boot. He wanted to watch Battle of wits but the timing slot was fully book one after the next time slot. So we decided to watch Happy Feet although i had a rough impression of the storyline wasnt that good cus was just singing & abt a penguine with special feet that could dance . Yet surprisingly it was a great, entertaining & touching show. Worth watching i could say 4/5 stars. And not forgetting the upcoming movie "Open Season" also a another entertaining cartoon movie. A hilarious story. All about animals haha. Anyway really njoy the movie and his company. Sorry that i m lazy at times to get my butt off the sofa =P forgive me hehe.( i know you will=P) Lastly congrats to averil for getting into the next round. Just want her to know no matter what is the result she is a star in our heart. Wish her all the best.

Like a bridge over troubled water...

Have u ever had this kind of feeling before? Anyway, I came across these interesting statement saying " Mens are appalling", "We never really mature, not on the inside. It's all just an act. Don't ever trust men. We're dreadful. Enjoy us, use us, abuse us, but never ever trust us." Have u ever suspect ur love ones ard you r true to u? i think it same goes to women who can be just as equal as how a men can behave. I personally thinks this is what i see in the society now & something that just spice up your life if u ever met such situation.

Recently i've rather felt weary & small, stepping one stone at a time. Hope i wont fall.

Design Cars...


First time went to see motorshow at suntex city so here are some pics taken and credit goes to XM...sony digital cam ho ho ho^^v Nice cars but my desire car not the few above:( cus i m more on commercial cars keke. Start dreaming again haiz...

HeLlo...

So tired that still got 4 more days to weekend! Why time is so slow? Yet i find e time passed so fast whenever i meet out my close friends & love ones. Why God dont give us more time to play!!!!Time really not enough for me to do many things i want but even if i got time i think i will use it to sleep & watch TV haha. Time just really files and each day i seems like growIng older & start to think a lot bout my own future sian -.- Anyway wana share this to you guys...

Cute? haha is from one of e toy machine which cost 2 golden coin for each set of 3. Me & sis simply finds it cute n interesting so we each had a set.

Hope i can smile like the dolls & feeling good each n every moment. I am feeling rather fortunate & blessed to have a family who dotes & take care of me, friends who shares my sorrows & of cos the fun & joy we had.
And my worries will soOn be gone...i will be bacK wIf my laUghter agAin haha

Remember to watch Channel U this comiNg Wed n look out for Averil Chan!!!

SiyonG's adVance B'Day

These was what i did last night with my usual good friends although some of them couldnt make it hope x'mas day can catch up with them =)...Firstly wana Thanks the b'day boy for the kind invitation dinner which i guess everyone has longed for or only me? haha anyway..Hope he like the gift & may his wishes come true.


And post x'mas pictures with the largest x'mas tree @ TakashimaYa haha...

Some of my thoughts

Looking at the mirror facing me reflects a girl with sad round eyes & a weak smile forced out.
Deep inside her she feels she is unique & has dreams to make it big for whatever she wish to achieve in work, love life, personal matters and contribution to the society for satisfaction...yet...Time is unripe & with no luck Only dreaming haha...

Questioning and searchin inner soul for the answer...

And this may be one of my answer cus i enjoy sharing my deepest thoughts to people who really cares & is interested in my life. Not those superficial people who simply ask for the sake of asking. Or selfish people who only talks about themselves. I simply miss the times sitting around coffee joint outlets with close friends, sharing, chating bout the past, present & perhaps future plans...the growing process together bonds each other. But with other commitments & hectic lifestyle, it's kinda of hard these days...kind of sad..but cant be sad, be glad cus it happened. haha tats wat wen finds it meaningful which sheng use it over his blog.

Jun Rong's B'day

Haha although we dont quite remember which day was his b'day yet we never failed to gave him an advance b'day celebration. haha thanks to Lilia...

My laughter's back haha

Last week periodically i went to ViVo City for the past 3 days watch movie look around & i agaga know how to get my way to any of the shops i want to go haha. Cus when i 1st went there, it was quite big that you might not remember how you 1st get back to the same shop & not knowing every outlet that you want to go. But it took me 3 days to be familiar with the whole shopping mall structure. Here what me n my family did...Makan haha very lucky to get a private room cus the main area seats were all occupied so left the VIP room good right?


an hour later....eat again haha...singaporeans like family & me, to us enjoying the finest ice-cream is the best haha..

k-ster

Weekends is a day to rest where we can put everything aside & relax, spend time & get together with family, friends or loved ones. Although i got to work half day on Sat-_- but i get to join my lovely friends after work for K! See how engrossed & hapPy they were...making all sorts of post haha...posers for the night...



Hope the gals had enjoyed themselves cus i did^^v cheerS~

26.10.2006

Been pretty restless & down on mood lately. It’s been a long time since I had a good laugh & light weight feeling.

Where has all the laughter & happiness gone to?

Weary of my job scope & miserable income. Working enviroment has a major transformation & morale running low . Fellow colleagues are bidding off one by one.

I long for a break . To sit down and think what I really want.

To plan & set attainable goals . To be happy & fulfilled.

Some random rants that is dying to burst out ...

I m deprived of sleep . I sucks-_-

Him:
Me helpless & sadden by the cries of tears, no amount of words of consolation could change the fact. And i couldn't do much to help relieve the problem & sadness.
But hopes this will be a beginning that doesnt part...when she truly apprecaites him.

Friends:
I'm rather selective of who my friends are. I cherish those good buddies of mine & they are already part of my life. Take that away from me and my life won't be in balance. The importance of friends.

Me:
Sometimes when i wanna talk about my feelings, no one is there to listen. And when they are free, I just dont feel like saying anything. The moment you feel like sharing it, it just vanish in the thin air & gone.

There is this saying:
The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you; It is when you dont understand yourself

I think i cant seem to understand myself lately...need to recharge, relax & reflect on myself. I will be fine...cuz goin for sinGing sessIon soon wif my Buddies Yeh!

Ipoh Trip

Last week end holiday i went to Ipoh with my closed one & friends. He & his friend actually planned before hand as we will spend our holiday eve to Ipoh and was assure that we agreed upon that trip. We were quite looking forward to it when he say we will be goin to a Cave Temple which sounds new & exciting to us. But he later told me everything got to be cancelled cus they need to work OT during the holiday for the extra income which sounds good too cus holiday pay is double isnt that temptating? Well is understandable so immediately i shut my mind off n not think about the trip anymore cus there will always be a chance to visit Ipoh. Yet to my disappointment he & his friend last minute told me they dont need to work OT & will continue the plan to Ipoh on that night. I was quite surprise cus i wasnt prepared at all to leave any soon when everything seems so sudden. Wen & me got to rush home in half an hours time just to get our important stuff n leave very soon cus we had to rush to JB and catch the last bus to Ipoh if not we shall be wondering around like homeless people =P Gladly to say we managed to get 1130 last bus to Ipoh but cost us RM65 bucks = $32.50 sing dollar. Normal days the rate should be RM30 but eve and public holiday extra charges for these bus agency. Very good calculation for them. Anyway since we are there doesnt matter bout the price anymore as long as everyone agreed n happY with it. It was a long 8 hours journey which i recalled back when my friends wen & me went to Genting HigHlands. But to my disappoinment was the so called Express bus we were taking wasnt that impressive & comfortable as i think. Looks good but the seats wasnt my type of comfort & the air-con will drip water down when it was shut off. He had a hard time sleeping n making himself comfortable on his seat which i felt helpless cus i cant do anything too. My conclusion was misa bus really can not make it-.-

Finally we reached Ipoh n headed to a budget hotel name Robin hotel sounds good ah? RM65 a day quite reasonable price n reasonable stay cus we jus need a shower room bed n air-con. But i think our spore Hotel 81 should be even better than that hehe. Soon we went to a coffee shop nearby for a meal 1st before we head off to the Cave Temple. As I notice while the guys are making their orders from the vendors, the people over there speaks no english nor simple mandrian jus their dialet cantonese language which non of our dialet is cantonese. But slight chinese language they could understand lets not say malay language. After all i'm sure everyone enjoyed themselves although its a long tiring journey back, but fortunately the bus back to spore was a FIVESTAR bus which was much more comfortable than the "Express" bus=P

My weekend!

Last weekend i've enjoyed myself with my closed ones. Went crab fishing and kite flying. Both was my 1st time although both i've seen people doing it before yet last weekend I finally got the chance to experience myself. The crab fishing was fun even though I dont get to bring home any crab 6.6 haha. The fun part was I actually get to learn to drop the net attached with a smelly fish head down the river and patiently waiting for the crab to be trap haha. The other part was I went Marina Bay for kite flying cum picnic. Despite a few really bad haze days we still went on with our plans arranged earlier on. Could say everyone was looking forward to it. We were relaxing & enjoying ourselves with all the yummy foods that each of us had made. But too bad Mayx2 & xiao jun not able to make it if not our 9 fairies will be complete for that day haha. I personally felt kite flying was an effortless interest but indeed an relaxing one. Learning how to follow the windy direction in order to allow ur kite fly high and far. But I definitely enjoy, like, the whole process. I enjoy my closed ones company and everything we did together. As long as they enjoyed themselves and I'm happy in myself, my life and my day, that's all the truly concerns me. Waiting for the next outing session with them soon ^^v Some happy moments taken down by aka XM:

Yeh!

Congratez! To Averil little mermaid whom was one of the Top 24 among 40 hopefuls contestants held last weekend the Superstar Singing competition at Suntex City. So joyful and excited for her. Her singing skill was better than i expected cus i only heard my sis said she not only can sing but sings very well too. And to my amazed her voice was really fantastic when i heard it live over at Suntex City. Although there was quite tough contestants too she still managed to performed her best and presented her original style. A very modest and cheerful friendly girl i know. Just for your info she is my sis only best polymate cum friend. And if you guys happen to catch the upcoming Superstar show please look out for her Averil with the longest hair and sweetest smile k! Do support her over the phone calls k!

My friends & My life

Recently my life have been twisted. A life that you call it happiness or something that spice up your life. Whatever that will bring me through i will face it. I don't have expectations. Expectations in your life just lead to giant disappointments. i'm an independent gal after all haha.

And look back the past few days my friends seems to be much more hapPi then i do. For watever reason i also wish them Happi too. Yet i realise one of my good friend seems to be facing an unknown "sickness". I just want her to know that I've had disappointments and heartbreaks and setbacks and roles I didn't get before, but something always came along that either made me better or was an even better role. Each of us has an inner thoughts that we can unfold if we will just have the courage to admit what it is. And the faith to trust our own admission. The admitting is often very difficult. I'm truthful and straightforward to the point of being tactless sometimes. But I'm a Gemini. I tot i could help out of been my friend listening ears sharing their happiness or sorrows. But i realise the most difficult thing in the world is to know how to do a thing and to watch someone else doing it wrong, without commenting. Many a times i wanted to share my views or send a message to my friends certain things that are advisable which maybe useful for them, but is often the hardest situation to say it out. Especially when these people are your good friends. If only they knew my good motive i wouldnt have been mistaken by them for my unintentionally action n unrudely speech.

I know i cant please most of my friends & love ones. Yet i still couldnt please them enough. Many things is out of my own control and means. Understanding is all i need. I just hope my friends can truly share their tots when they preach to me or consider me as their friend. Do you think i care if you are just a nobody to me? It only hurts your good friends around you rather then yourself. Human being is selfish but never to your closest kin or bestest friend. Take it as i m demanding and unreasonable for all that i 've done. Cus i'm just been myself honestly.My friends & love ones tend to dont understand me but for all this i 've never take it to hard cus life is just too short to be fear & anger for anything. Is either u r horrible or miserable. I m just the miserable happI one.

Recall back wen & shan b'day

Pictures says everything see for urself haha..the pizza thingy is on shan b'day outing & since b'day gal felt she dont look good that night so as to respect her i shall not post her pic up keke. May this 2 lovely ladies stay truly haPpi n cheerfUL forever k! Best is meet your Prince charMing soon!

My blog

Hi people, upon my gd friend request i think i got to clarify why am i writing the way that some of you dont understand even i used very simple english to express my entries. But 1st thank you for ur comments n spontanous remarks. Actually what i want to say over my entries is to express to you guys most of the things that is happening around me. And is not entirely bout myself only. Mostly is about you guys and people i know. I cant expose the true event that had happened over here cus i value my personal life & to protect my friends privacy. Bascially everything that had happened i just wrote how i felt towards their lives, decision they made & my aim is to give them some ideas, a little bit of hopes, aimless dreams & full encouragement. You guys don have to read too much on what i think but perhaps forcus on the things u do n carefully decide it b4 it hurts u.

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?

Recently many things had happened. Be it good or bad lives got to move on. Some of my thoughts was a fear of the unknown keeps a lot of people from leaving bad situations. There are good and bad times, but our mood changes more often than our fortune. It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get. If everything is very important, then nothing is important. Dont give urself hard time cus not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced. I always believe there's a reason why you go through everything. We should know that we are all part of the whole, we are all together. And everything that we do affects each other. Some people come into our lives,leave footprints in our hearts,and we are never ever the same. It is the same as, its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment. Just have to accept it and ur life will be better.

Advance mini b'day celebration 4 Shanx2...

At first i tot we have agreed to have dinner at Takashimaya pepper lunch but shanx2 & friends would prefer pizza hut over pepper lunch. So we had pizza at lucky plaza which i didnt even notice there is an outlet there & is just infront of the lift-.-"
Anyway was quite a pleasure to see our b'day girl 1st time dressed so formally bcus of her training session jus before our meeting up. Could see she wasnt very comfortable with her formal outfit and e shape pointed high-heel shoe hee. But she does look neat with her hair bun up yet she kept saying looks ugly n old haha. Perhaps she dont bun her hair when she is at outside except at home cus nobody see keke. Anyway it was a nice n special dinner wif my usual gd friends talking and giggling over the dinner. Most importantly was please to see that shanx2 like the adiddas green original sport jacket we gave her. And may she wears the jacket will remind her of her "your lovely friends.com".

And next i wana say my curiousity had an answer cus an event has happened, upon which it is difficult to speak, and impossible to be silent. Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.The truth is cruel, but it can be loved, and it makes free those who have loved it. Most people stumble over the truth, now and then, but they usually manage to pick themselves up and go on, anyway. It is better to be feared than loved, if you cannot be both. I see when men love women, they give them but a little of their lives. But women when they love, they give everything. It is always wise to look ahead, but difficult to look further than you can see.It's not the events of our lives that shape us, but our beliefs as to what those events mean. Life is just like that what to do?

Changes?

After reading shanx2 current entry i think it makes me wanna write something bout "changes in life" or perhaps "Decision-Making". In life when we are a small kid decision making is always decided by our own parents or taken care of and somehow we wont felt the pressure or dilemma in any situation been made for us. But as we grown up everything is moving so fast and you can see changes in our lives that is when u felt u have to make choices of your own. The kind of life you want and decide the life of your own. Things change all the time, and they'll probably never be the same again. It's just the natural evolution of the human condition. Things change, and whatever it is is what it is. I mean, you try to start second guessing that, you either get rich or die broke. Nothing can be worst then that i suppose in singapore case. To me, living in the present means being aware of your conscious choice to focus on the past, present or future - it is not necessarily having to focus on the present. Only one thing has to change for us to know happiness in our lives: where we focus our attention. No one is in control of your happiness but you, therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.There maybe tough decisions we made but we shouldn't feel bad at all. There have been trade-offs every day, every month, every year. There's a lot that I missed and I do have regrets in that area. Accept everything about yourself I mean everything, You are you and that is the beginning and the end, no apologies, no regrets. Follow your heart never feel sorry for what you have decided:)