26.10.2006

Been pretty restless & down on mood lately. It’s been a long time since I had a good laugh & light weight feeling.

Where has all the laughter & happiness gone to?

Weary of my job scope & miserable income. Working enviroment has a major transformation & morale running low . Fellow colleagues are bidding off one by one.

I long for a break . To sit down and think what I really want.

To plan & set attainable goals . To be happy & fulfilled.

Some random rants that is dying to burst out ...

I m deprived of sleep . I sucks-_-

Him:
Me helpless & sadden by the cries of tears, no amount of words of consolation could change the fact. And i couldn't do much to help relieve the problem & sadness.
But hopes this will be a beginning that doesnt part...when she truly apprecaites him.

Friends:
I'm rather selective of who my friends are. I cherish those good buddies of mine & they are already part of my life. Take that away from me and my life won't be in balance. The importance of friends.

Me:
Sometimes when i wanna talk about my feelings, no one is there to listen. And when they are free, I just dont feel like saying anything. The moment you feel like sharing it, it just vanish in the thin air & gone.

There is this saying:
The most difficult phase of life is not when no one understands you; It is when you dont understand yourself

I think i cant seem to understand myself lately...need to recharge, relax & reflect on myself. I will be fine...cuz goin for sinGing sessIon soon wif my Buddies Yeh!

Ipoh Trip

Last week end holiday i went to Ipoh with my closed one & friends. He & his friend actually planned before hand as we will spend our holiday eve to Ipoh and was assure that we agreed upon that trip. We were quite looking forward to it when he say we will be goin to a Cave Temple which sounds new & exciting to us. But he later told me everything got to be cancelled cus they need to work OT during the holiday for the extra income which sounds good too cus holiday pay is double isnt that temptating? Well is understandable so immediately i shut my mind off n not think about the trip anymore cus there will always be a chance to visit Ipoh. Yet to my disappointment he & his friend last minute told me they dont need to work OT & will continue the plan to Ipoh on that night. I was quite surprise cus i wasnt prepared at all to leave any soon when everything seems so sudden. Wen & me got to rush home in half an hours time just to get our important stuff n leave very soon cus we had to rush to JB and catch the last bus to Ipoh if not we shall be wondering around like homeless people =P Gladly to say we managed to get 1130 last bus to Ipoh but cost us RM65 bucks = $32.50 sing dollar. Normal days the rate should be RM30 but eve and public holiday extra charges for these bus agency. Very good calculation for them. Anyway since we are there doesnt matter bout the price anymore as long as everyone agreed n happY with it. It was a long 8 hours journey which i recalled back when my friends wen & me went to Genting HigHlands. But to my disappoinment was the so called Express bus we were taking wasnt that impressive & comfortable as i think. Looks good but the seats wasnt my type of comfort & the air-con will drip water down when it was shut off. He had a hard time sleeping n making himself comfortable on his seat which i felt helpless cus i cant do anything too. My conclusion was misa bus really can not make it-.-

Finally we reached Ipoh n headed to a budget hotel name Robin hotel sounds good ah? RM65 a day quite reasonable price n reasonable stay cus we jus need a shower room bed n air-con. But i think our spore Hotel 81 should be even better than that hehe. Soon we went to a coffee shop nearby for a meal 1st before we head off to the Cave Temple. As I notice while the guys are making their orders from the vendors, the people over there speaks no english nor simple mandrian jus their dialet cantonese language which non of our dialet is cantonese. But slight chinese language they could understand lets not say malay language. After all i'm sure everyone enjoyed themselves although its a long tiring journey back, but fortunately the bus back to spore was a FIVESTAR bus which was much more comfortable than the "Express" bus=P

My weekend!

Last weekend i've enjoyed myself with my closed ones. Went crab fishing and kite flying. Both was my 1st time although both i've seen people doing it before yet last weekend I finally got the chance to experience myself. The crab fishing was fun even though I dont get to bring home any crab 6.6 haha. The fun part was I actually get to learn to drop the net attached with a smelly fish head down the river and patiently waiting for the crab to be trap haha. The other part was I went Marina Bay for kite flying cum picnic. Despite a few really bad haze days we still went on with our plans arranged earlier on. Could say everyone was looking forward to it. We were relaxing & enjoying ourselves with all the yummy foods that each of us had made. But too bad Mayx2 & xiao jun not able to make it if not our 9 fairies will be complete for that day haha. I personally felt kite flying was an effortless interest but indeed an relaxing one. Learning how to follow the windy direction in order to allow ur kite fly high and far. But I definitely enjoy, like, the whole process. I enjoy my closed ones company and everything we did together. As long as they enjoyed themselves and I'm happy in myself, my life and my day, that's all the truly concerns me. Waiting for the next outing session with them soon ^^v Some happy moments taken down by aka XM:

Yeh!

Congratez! To Averil little mermaid whom was one of the Top 24 among 40 hopefuls contestants held last weekend the Superstar Singing competition at Suntex City. So joyful and excited for her. Her singing skill was better than i expected cus i only heard my sis said she not only can sing but sings very well too. And to my amazed her voice was really fantastic when i heard it live over at Suntex City. Although there was quite tough contestants too she still managed to performed her best and presented her original style. A very modest and cheerful friendly girl i know. Just for your info she is my sis only best polymate cum friend. And if you guys happen to catch the upcoming Superstar show please look out for her Averil with the longest hair and sweetest smile k! Do support her over the phone calls k!

My friends & My life

Recently my life have been twisted. A life that you call it happiness or something that spice up your life. Whatever that will bring me through i will face it. I don't have expectations. Expectations in your life just lead to giant disappointments. i'm an independent gal after all haha.

And look back the past few days my friends seems to be much more hapPi then i do. For watever reason i also wish them Happi too. Yet i realise one of my good friend seems to be facing an unknown "sickness". I just want her to know that I've had disappointments and heartbreaks and setbacks and roles I didn't get before, but something always came along that either made me better or was an even better role. Each of us has an inner thoughts that we can unfold if we will just have the courage to admit what it is. And the faith to trust our own admission. The admitting is often very difficult. I'm truthful and straightforward to the point of being tactless sometimes. But I'm a Gemini. I tot i could help out of been my friend listening ears sharing their happiness or sorrows. But i realise the most difficult thing in the world is to know how to do a thing and to watch someone else doing it wrong, without commenting. Many a times i wanted to share my views or send a message to my friends certain things that are advisable which maybe useful for them, but is often the hardest situation to say it out. Especially when these people are your good friends. If only they knew my good motive i wouldnt have been mistaken by them for my unintentionally action n unrudely speech.

I know i cant please most of my friends & love ones. Yet i still couldnt please them enough. Many things is out of my own control and means. Understanding is all i need. I just hope my friends can truly share their tots when they preach to me or consider me as their friend. Do you think i care if you are just a nobody to me? It only hurts your good friends around you rather then yourself. Human being is selfish but never to your closest kin or bestest friend. Take it as i m demanding and unreasonable for all that i 've done. Cus i'm just been myself honestly.My friends & love ones tend to dont understand me but for all this i 've never take it to hard cus life is just too short to be fear & anger for anything. Is either u r horrible or miserable. I m just the miserable happI one.

Recall back wen & shan b'day

Pictures says everything see for urself haha..the pizza thingy is on shan b'day outing & since b'day gal felt she dont look good that night so as to respect her i shall not post her pic up keke. May this 2 lovely ladies stay truly haPpi n cheerfUL forever k! Best is meet your Prince charMing soon!

My blog

Hi people, upon my gd friend request i think i got to clarify why am i writing the way that some of you dont understand even i used very simple english to express my entries. But 1st thank you for ur comments n spontanous remarks. Actually what i want to say over my entries is to express to you guys most of the things that is happening around me. And is not entirely bout myself only. Mostly is about you guys and people i know. I cant expose the true event that had happened over here cus i value my personal life & to protect my friends privacy. Bascially everything that had happened i just wrote how i felt towards their lives, decision they made & my aim is to give them some ideas, a little bit of hopes, aimless dreams & full encouragement. You guys don have to read too much on what i think but perhaps forcus on the things u do n carefully decide it b4 it hurts u.

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Recently many things had happened. Be it good or bad lives got to move on. Some of my thoughts was a fear of the unknown keeps a lot of people from leaving bad situations. There are good and bad times, but our mood changes more often than our fortune. It is easy to hate and it is difficult to love. This is how the whole scheme of things works. All good things are difficult to achieve; and bad things are very easy to get. If everything is very important, then nothing is important. Dont give urself hard time cus not everything that is faced can be changed, but nothing can be changed until it is faced. I always believe there's a reason why you go through everything. We should know that we are all part of the whole, we are all together. And everything that we do affects each other. Some people come into our lives,leave footprints in our hearts,and we are never ever the same. It is the same as, its hard to pretend you love someone when you don't but its harder to pretend that you don't love someone when you really do. We must all suffer one of two things: the pain of discipline or the pain of regret or disappointment. Just have to accept it and ur life will be better.

Advance mini b'day celebration 4 Shanx2...

At first i tot we have agreed to have dinner at Takashimaya pepper lunch but shanx2 & friends would prefer pizza hut over pepper lunch. So we had pizza at lucky plaza which i didnt even notice there is an outlet there & is just infront of the lift-.-"
Anyway was quite a pleasure to see our b'day girl 1st time dressed so formally bcus of her training session jus before our meeting up. Could see she wasnt very comfortable with her formal outfit and e shape pointed high-heel shoe hee. But she does look neat with her hair bun up yet she kept saying looks ugly n old haha. Perhaps she dont bun her hair when she is at outside except at home cus nobody see keke. Anyway it was a nice n special dinner wif my usual gd friends talking and giggling over the dinner. Most importantly was please to see that shanx2 like the adiddas green original sport jacket we gave her. And may she wears the jacket will remind her of her "your lovely friends.com".

And next i wana say my curiousity had an answer cus an event has happened, upon which it is difficult to speak, and impossible to be silent. Everything we hear is an opinion, not a fact. Everything we see is a perspective, not the truth.The truth is cruel, but it can be loved, and it makes free those who have loved it. Most people stumble over the truth, now and then, but they usually manage to pick themselves up and go on, anyway. It is better to be feared than loved, if you cannot be both. I see when men love women, they give them but a little of their lives. But women when they love, they give everything. It is always wise to look ahead, but difficult to look further than you can see.It's not the events of our lives that shape us, but our beliefs as to what those events mean. Life is just like that what to do?

Changes?

After reading shanx2 current entry i think it makes me wanna write something bout "changes in life" or perhaps "Decision-Making". In life when we are a small kid decision making is always decided by our own parents or taken care of and somehow we wont felt the pressure or dilemma in any situation been made for us. But as we grown up everything is moving so fast and you can see changes in our lives that is when u felt u have to make choices of your own. The kind of life you want and decide the life of your own. Things change all the time, and they'll probably never be the same again. It's just the natural evolution of the human condition. Things change, and whatever it is is what it is. I mean, you try to start second guessing that, you either get rich or die broke. Nothing can be worst then that i suppose in singapore case. To me, living in the present means being aware of your conscious choice to focus on the past, present or future - it is not necessarily having to focus on the present. Only one thing has to change for us to know happiness in our lives: where we focus our attention. No one is in control of your happiness but you, therefore, you have the power to change anything about yourself or your life that you want to change.There maybe tough decisions we made but we shouldn't feel bad at all. There have been trade-offs every day, every month, every year. There's a lot that I missed and I do have regrets in that area. Accept everything about yourself I mean everything, You are you and that is the beginning and the end, no apologies, no regrets. Follow your heart never feel sorry for what you have decided:)

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My Sunday ^.^

Went to watch 1st Korean boy band SHINHWA concert at Indoor stadium. Two words to discribe 환상 (fantastic) & 피로한 (tired). Fantastic was bcus of their performance but i believe they can do better. Tired was bcus of the long waiting -_-". Hope Fly 2 the Sky can come to spore too but i think i m been hopeful only....haha.

The price of anything is the amount of life you exchange for it. Live everyday of your life & be content with it.

SenTosA BeacH 03.09.06

Recalled back last sundaY went to Sentosa siloso beach meet up with my colleague & their friend for a beach game. The weather in the late afternoon was rather real humid & hot. Yet the fun was there as far as i can bare =P Not to forget that day was also one of my unlucky day cus my favourite sandal the strip broken! I was so surprised cus i just told them how lasting my sandal had been wore by me till now. Unexpectedly a few mins later when we were rushing to went up the tram, my right sandal strip jus spilt like that. My sisters & sharOn reAlly no heaRt, cus they were laughing happily at me & my broken sandal like nobody business.I wasnt very upset bout it cus i think the strip itself was getting thinner and thinner so eventually it just went broken w/o any warning -.-" And i think it also gave me an excuse to get a new pair of slipper haha. My sister had chosen a green colour slipper similiar design as hers, well for me no comments as long as there is a proper slipper for me to wear. Dont wana walk barefoot like Tarzan-_-" For the night we had spicy noodle for dinner which i think is a new try out for me. The degree of hotness can be decided by urself which was very interesting when most of the guys would love to try it. But my advice to you is try it once and never upset your stomach again if your belly couldnt take it. Dont like one of my colleague next day looking so stress with an upsetting stomach until face turn pale haha =P






Lastly wana say A HaPpy BirThday to VirGo PeI wEn & my dEarest Brother. May you guys staY CheerfUl & Smily Virgo always.

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02.08.2006 The Guitar Night, Classic meets Pop

These was my 3rd time to watch guitar performance presented by 2 popular guitar musician. Organied by the TPGC members which XM belongs to one of them too that night. The location was at DBS auditorium tower 1. Anyway it was again XM kind invitation which i paid for it to listen & enjoy the music that night. The most interesting part was the special guest they 've invited whom was said to be Jacinta( currently spore idol judge)father which was unexpected to me. His indeed a very humours old man with great music talent. Overall was delighted that night thanks XM =D A few Pics taken that night by XM

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Lost my Voice with Resp Tract Infection

First time i had such a bad sore throat that is killing me that i hardly could sleep or breathe. I fight with it for the past 3 days and tot it will recover itself with all kinds of cough relief syrup i have in house but it still doesnt work. Still i had to pay the DR a visit to get the medicine for cure but yet have to depends on me who got to drink loads of water advice from the DR. Hope my voice will be back soon and pain will be ease soon.

Anyway gonna update on wat i did for the last weekend. Celebrated birthday for 2 of my friend which both falls on the same day but different age. Didnt had any surprises for them but the tots that comes from our heart. There's no time like the present. Do what you want to do, make yourself happy. And hope they are happy with a year older haha. Not to forget yesterday was one of my colleague IVY 23rd b'day. Had a mini food feast with Darren & Mrs yong kind sponsers hee. Glad ivy like the b'day gift cuz saw her expression looks astonish never tot she would receive customised mug from us. Well we always can come up with great ideas if only we think hard enough he he. Meaningful to her thou. Hope all VirGo people can stay lovely & cheerful always.

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-.-

i'm sick!! So sickening. Last night i woke up in the middle of the night started to feel uncomfortable with my throat when i try to swallow. My throat was giving me a hard time cus i felt so pain each time i try to swallow down my saliva. Instantly i knew i'm down with a bad sore throat. What comes into my mind was bad curse must had falls on me cus my friend bao long also sick & i kept saying him so now it just happened so suddenly. So painful that i hardly wants to talk the next morning. Initially i thought i just got a bad sore throat and after my mom gave me a chinese pill from china which she conclude can cure any common sickness like flu cough & sore throat. So i had to believe her & hope it does cure. Later when i went to office i'm still looking fine althought i seems to look a bit reluctant when my colleagues and wen was talking to me. I didnt know i look so pale only after they kept asking me am i alright. i told them just a bad sore throat should be alright since i had taken my mom so called " miracle pill" haha. But things just got worsen when i started to feel cold and giddy on my head. When i stand up to walk my head start to spin & makes me feel unbalance. Perhaps was just my psychology thinking that made me feel weak or something. So i kept thinking i'm alright & will be fine. But not long i felt my whole body a bit warm then my unusual days. I asked my colleagues & wen to feel my forehead whether i m down with fever. Thought it wasnt too accurate, wen used the office ear thermometer to measure my temperature. And it shows 38.4 then normal body temperature. I wasnt very surprise cus when u r down wif sore throat, fever will come to you too. Depends on individual body. I was waitin for time to pass so that i can get home quickly pop a panadol & rest for a while. And not forgetting my dear brother made a glass of fresh orange juice wif a pinch of salt hoping to heal my sore throat. It does works so if anyone of u got a bad sore throat just do the same k!Alternatively you can also mixed salt with tap water & gargle your throat. Yet seeking doctor is the best if you are really sick. My cause of having a bad sore throat was because i ate too much heaty food & especially tasty crackers. Not forgetting i ate prata for the past two days too. Until i become like this -.- I've learned my lesson & dont wish to spend money to see doctor very costly. Sorry my friends cant join you guys for gifts. But i believe w/o me you guys still can make the best choice for our friend.

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Nothing like a drop in your heart

Recently heard from my sister that her long distance friend got married & had a very chubby baby when she remember chatted with him not long ago & the news jus break out. And can be quite surprise. The reason that he kept it until now is because his worried that my sister would not want him as a friend anymore. But he was so wrong that my sister didnt even think that way. She felt so happy and delighted that he got married and had a happy family. He even sent us some of his baby picture taken with his wife. Everything just turn out to be so beautiful & blessing for his new born baby. Time gradually files which some of us didnt even notice or want to make use of it. I believe that when someone crosses over, regardless how we choose to define them (negative, positive) they are met by other friends, relatives, energies, help them understand the life and lessons they learned, the experiences they have shared with others and the feelings they've shared with others.

My sister & i had chatted alot and exchanged a lot of our own thots and views. Then i realise my entire life has been an attempt to get back to the kind of feelings i've always wanted. The fact is that people are good, give people affection and security, and they will give affection and be secure in their feelings and their behavior. But is that what you really wants? I pay no attention whatever to anybody's praise or blame. I simply follow my own feelings. When I was a kid, I internalized everything, kept my feelings to myself. But now my gut feelings and my faith tell me that until God shuts a door, no human can shut it. Be true to urself and it's important not to indicate. People don't try to show their feelings, they try to hide them. Give me a break & soon my path will cross. Thanks sis for making me realise dreams do come true if you persistant. I will support you all the way.

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My Harsh Words...

Today i make my friend Pei Wen get upset with me. We had a exchanged of words and i think eventually my words came out to be a bit harsh or straight towards her. Somehow i know she got stomach cramp and i think makes her even mad at me. Immediately you can see her face turn black and when i try to talk to her she simply wants to ignore me. Instantly i knew something is not right. Well, i quickly apologise to her eventot i know is of no use but somehow someone has to make the first move to apologise. And since i am part of the cause i admit is my fault to make her turn upset. She say she is not angry with an unsightly face by not looking at you when u are talkin to her. Do you think she is not mad? I keep asking her if she is unhappy with me just tell me so. Or maybe i'm not worth to be mad with. Even lunch she didnt want to join me and that is her unusual self. Perhaps i've gone too far and she is suffering from cramp that make her mood swing like nobody business. I knew i should have kept my mouth shut and things wont have turn out this way. My words mean no harm to anyone cus i'm just been honest like anybody out there. If my words can hurt someone so easily then something must be wrong with me. I need to do some reflection thou. The best is not to speak if you are a down to earth person. As i think pei wen cant take my words for joke which i will not do it again. I finally see what kind of friends can take ur words for serious & just for laugh. For so long time since someone is unhappy with me. Cus i dont remember making people unhappy when i am afraid to see others unhappy. i'm too straight & no nice words can come out from my unkind mouth, bad girl.

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Is SunnY Day!

Did some uploading pictures to my image station & lazying around my home sweet home haha. Listened to one of my favourite singer Coco Lee song. Came across her previous "Promise Coco" album. There is this meaningful lyrics which i find it kinda of sad.

爱是那么真

爱一个人爱那么深
为什么呢我好天真
你说爱情是一种梦游症
难怪现在的我有点昏
我的呼吸你的眼神有许多是正在发生
我不必说话也不必问
爱真的骗不了人
爱是那么那么真
爱让一切都可能
你的名字在我心理翻滚
我不想否认我爱一个人
我自己问还有谁能让我开心让我心疼
不管你说什么我都肯
我会对你好认真
爱是那么那么真
爱也让我拿不准
请你给我真心的一吻
你能不能保证爱情的万能
我没有说你也没问
你也知道我要永恒
若真爱是一之海底针
我要千你的手往下沉
ending:总有那么一天时间会作证
爱是那么那么真

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.

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Swensens's Gathering

Yesterday it was great to meet up with my group of wonderfuL friends again since after our BKK trip. Althought i still not feelin very good yet i want to make it jus to see how are they. Especially lilia and JR. Ever since the last time we saw Lilia sending us off to the Airport we didnt have time to catch up nor chat over the phone. Siyong didnt make it cus his busy contributing service to the nation at singpore stadium haha & our precious Jasmine working hard till late didnt want to trouble her to travel & meet us since we going off soon. We had good chat over dinner and glad to hear that Shanx2 goin for her training in Sept. Hope everything will goes well for her. But before that you must take good care and not fall sick easily okie. Is tough for a newbie moreover u have to go through several training section & can be very tiring i suppose. So keep away junk food and oily stuff k!Must stay away from ur favourite food for the mean time hee.

Not forgetting "xiao Ming" finally send me those thailand doggy picture & i shall share wif u guys whats so special bout them ^^v

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HapPy 41st BirtHDaY mY HomeTowN Singapore

To express my thoughts for Singapore is for good or for ill, hope everyone will live happily & enjoy this very moment with our nation. I shall stand for freedom of thought and expression in a place where it has been trampled and penalized. haha.

Anyway i had a very bad stomach pain & was feeling very bloated early in the morning when i was about to leave my house for work. I tot maybe is jus a short pain maybe in the afternoon will feel better. But it got worst & i start to ponder what is happening to me. I couldn't work peacefully cus the pain is killing me. Is not any common gastric pain cus i dont have any history of gastric pain too, so it cant be that. I recalled back thinking i had been eating quite a lot since after my period, and the output wasnt quite equal to the amount of input i had. I knew my food must have stuck in between my intestine which made me felt bloated and wanted to vomit the whole day. As long as i sit down i dont feel like vomiting. But as soon as i stand up and walk a bit more i felt like vomiting. So horrible me. Thanks to pei Ong whom bought papaya milk for me to digest but i just couldnt drink any of that bcus i really had enough of water and felt even bloated. Is even worst if i drink it and vomit out, wil be a waste of ur effort lor. Next time buy me something nice to drink k? Papaya really not my kind unless i'm been force to eat hee. Later part i called my father to come and fetch me cus i know his knocking off and will b convenient to fetch me on his way home.

After that i slept & rest for a few hours still feeling uneasy, giddy & felt like throwing out, i quickly asked my sister to accompany me to our nearby clinic to see doctor. From what the doctor had examined, he conclude i had GASTRIC FLU which is similiar to common nose FLU just that mine is from the stomach. He advice me try to avoid Milk, Spicy food & dont know what cant remember, for the time being only. Glad is nothing serious. Hope my bowel will come back to normal & no more of this kind of feeling.

PS: Thanks my family & friends for your concern. Medicine works mircle haha.

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What's wrong with me?

Today, i went to work with a heavy heart feeling but the normal self me. Not mood swing nor upset. Is just a weird feeling when i woke up i dont seems to be alert like the usual days. Perhaps people have times in their lives when they are forced to examine themselves. And i am one of them whom starts to examine & explore myself. I start to think it is not what we get. But who we become, what we contribute... that gives meaning to our lives. It's not the events of our lives that shape us, but our beliefs as to what those events mean. I've anticipate things that are new & old to me yet i still cant achieve a balance in it. But in any event, you know, it certainly changed lives and it made us wonder where to go. Got to be stupid of me to think differently. Clear my mind & start doing the things i like will comfort my feelings back. I urge for the kind of eager feeling back!^^v

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What's Your Type of Guy/Girl

Try this out!

You fall hard and fast for the preppy man!

If he's conservative, friendly, and proper, he's just your sort! You fall hard and fast for the preppy man. Whether it's because of his handsome appearance or his impeccable hygiene, this man is a safe bet! He's fun and social without being immature or laddish. Your man is refined, associates with a refined crowd, and has a bit of an air tossed in for good measure. This suburban male is always put together well. He's simply cool, calm, and collected. Another quality that draws you to him is his ambition. He aims for success and follows the path that will lead him there. You respect how he always makes time for his friends and has a tendency to be a little silly. With this cheeky, well-groomed, man, you can rest assured that your life will be a dream!

what's yours?

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Jet Jet tryin to take a picture but kelian suddenly pop out omg!

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Haha This is me!!!me me me! But is me when i am a small kid hee. Very Cute right? Well at least i think so. Jus wanted to test uploading a picture. Dont abuse my childhood picture okie people. Be nice to her.

Amazing Thailand 21/07/06-25/07/06

Hello! People i m back!For the past few days got miss me? I bet dont have haha cus i can drag a month or 2 to post a new blog so is not amuse at all if i suddenly blog new story. Anyway didnt wanted to look forward to this trip cus i know it will end very soon( meaning good thing ends very fast). And it also means we are back to the reality society again =( Perhaps the good thing in life was just do the things u like and enjoy the urself the fullest. I think to begin i going to leave it simple & short cuz 5 days experience in thailand not much to say as most of it my lovely friend Lena had the full coverage in her blog so anyone interested can go n read k! But i'll do some touch up on my point of view that we did in thailand. I wanted to say the most happening thing we did was chose to watch TIGER show instead of "Ah Gua" show which i felt incredible. Cuz i ve watched "ah gu" show long time ago so something new for me would be nice. The overall 45 mins show can conclude that woman are so amazing & daring. Perharps human beings, who are almost unique in having the ability to show remarkable talent which is nothing so easy to learn as experience and nothing so hard to apply.

We did mostly shopping and eating over there which is our main objective but regret to say our weekend shopping at Chatuchap not very fruitful. Didnt manage to conquer the wholesale market cus is too big and too many section to shop couldnt finish in a day or 2 lor. Children is strongly discourage to go because its jus too big that even adult have the risk to get lost inside. Hope next time can go back again and continue to bargin like hell haha. Over all i've bought quite some stuff for myself and close friends of mine. Not sure what whether they like it or not but is something from thailand by me, so i think also got no choice la hehe. Glad to say i did not exceed my barget and still left few hundred bucks back to spore haha. Maybe is a sign for me to go back again n spend more the next time haha. Not forgetting i bought a new bear name Jet Jet proudly presented by Jet Star Asia which i hope he can blend in with the rest of my sis soft toy esp that cheeky Blu Blu haha. His picture can be view over at Lena's blog and was smartly taken by shan digi cam. Thanks Shan! "sha wai di kar" (three bowl of pig leg)haha.

Lastly i would like to say the trip was a memorable and unforgettable one. And to my dear friends do you know the real test of friendship is can you literally do nothing with the other person? Can you enjoy those moments of life that are utterly simple? It is one of the blessings of true friends that you can afford to be stupid with them. So even though we did stupid things just to look for a friend we still willing to do it no matter how embarass we are. Hence, let us be grateful that we can cherish our friends & love ones around for the entire life. Tata!

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?
爱, 无力

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友
但做回朋友的情人
想摆脱关系不太容易
寂寞变成了习惯
习惯靠着孤单
想念该遗忘
不该在身旁
陪着我的每个夜晚

我 只 想 对着天空轻轻的呼吸
寻找我最爱的人到底在哪里
在慌乱中
翻箱倒柜寻找记忆
有一种爱它曾经住在我心里
陪伴我熬过多少个无声哭泣
不懂爱情
我的心如此无力


其实我很清醒
其实我很冷静
看着眼泪滴过来手心

最后我们分开了
虽然还是朋友

I m back to the same thing? -.-
Well got to recall back what i've done for the past few weeks or a month? Anyway it wont be very convenient for me to update my blog frequently cus my sister needs to use the PC more than i do, for some personal reason-_- To begin i got to say for those whom read my latest entry below and i m sorry to say i m still working as usual w/o any heart feelings yet a bit of regret only. Perhaps is fated that i got to work for my Co.at least a year before i can pursue another different career path. But i told myself i can learn more with a longer time period so i can only say was not that bad afterall. Perhaps life, is not a having and a getting, but a being and a becoming. For the past few weeks went out with some interesting colleague for dinner & movie treat. Got to compliment them for been such a spontanous companion because if you dont meet the right people to relax & chill out situation can be quite boring haha. Somehow it develops a kind of friendship that you will cherish your friends even more around you. To be continued...

21/06/06 my leaVe day ^^v
Today i going back to school to collect my cert and do some catching up with my friends.Look forward to see miss princess linda's laughter,encouragement & her stories. Not forgetting eugene & ser lee joining too.Actually today is also a good reflection day for me. 1 month later i will be jobless,alone,dreamer,laugh like no body business and most importantly i will be happy and grateful to myself. I had this life that looked great on the outside, but on the inside I had a hole in my heart. Nobody will ever know or even understand why there is a hole in my heart and what happened except my room mate. You learn, right, a lot of people's problems why they get upset, why they get down, why they turn to drink is because they can't say one word and it's N-O, no. There were times when there were parts that I was sure I got and then I didn't, and I did get upset. But at this point, it doesn't affect me in the least because I know it just doesnt works on me. I don't get upset over things I can control, because if I can control them there's no sense in getting upset. And I don't get upset over things I can't control, because if I can't control them there's no sense in getting upset. You control your future, your destiny. What you think about comes about. In other words, one is responsible for one's own destiny and one has also the capacity for hewing out one's own destiny. Pain Hurts but its the memories that kill you. Sometimes I wish I was a little kid again....skinned knees are easier to fix than broken hearts! They say, 'forgive and forget', but if someone's worth forgiving, you'll never forget them. My room mate told me don't cry because it's over. Smile because it happened. Life is as ruff as sleeping as boulders but when you finally find that one indescribeable person, it feels as if all weight is lifted off your chest and its as soothing and calming as lilies blowing through an oceans breeze. Dream as if you'll live forever. Live as if you'll die today. The very least you can do in your life is to figure out what you hope for. And the most you can do is live inside that hope. Not admire it from a distance but live right in it, under its roof.

I've learned that no matter how bad your heart is broken the world doesn't stop for your grief.

Should you find yourself at a loss and pondering what is life all about, asking what is my purpose? Be thankful. There are those who didn't live long enough to get the opportunity.

It's my life!

Few days ago i also happened to saw a few meaningful quotes wana share with you guys:

"Truth and tears clear the way to a deep and lasting friendship."

"True friendship is never serene."
- Mariede Svign

18/06/06 Nite Cycling Cum Father Day

Want to know how my night cycling experience again? 3 words to describe interesting,unforgettable and mentally tortured.Why mentally tortured? we actually started out from EC->kallang river->esplanade->lau pa sat->sentosa->orchard->indoor stadium->24hrs macdonald near the stadium and lastly back to EC. We had our early BF at Mac & was earlier than anyone else whose still soundly asleep in their nice cosy bed -_-" even after the last match of the World Cup game. When we were at the mac everyones head was down on the table and looking like a zombie desprately shuting their eyes for a gd rest. Esp me i was dead like hell. Perhaps this time we set off too early and was quite tiring when the time was still early.The thing was even we wanted to return the bicycle early the easliest we can go back is ard 8 plus than the rental shop will be open. And that was the most mentally torture to me. Hanging out like a sleepless soul torturing myself again haha. Anyway the whole trip was more exciting than the 1st one. Cus we really cycle like no body business which means we mus look out for oncoming cars which there was no extra escorts like the 1st one. Enjoy it but not going for another one yet. Sharon spare me a year haha.

Not forgetting today is father's Day and my father side cousin wedding. May all father's stay faithful and honest to their spouse. And may truly couples had a blissful marriage with loads of joy and happiness.

It's My Birthday!
Last sunday which is my actual birthday, my usual best friends make out a dinner at Hotel Phoenix. Well our intention wasnt something too expensive but perhaps something different which was uncommon then before so nothing too posh for us.Anyway it was a buffet dinner which cost each of us around 26 bucks yet i didnt really eat much or could say i am not a buffet type of person no matter how hungry i am. My friends all look normal for a start even thought some of them make it just because was my B day which i truly appreciate that. Nevertherless, they still gave me a surprise with the waitress serving my bday cake from behind that really touched my heart. The most joyful thing was they gave me a Diving Mask and a printed made card with my picture on it! I was so happy that only tears can express how happy i am that night. I wana say thanks to my group of faithful friends who never fail to give me their best and so on. Not forgetting there will be more such bday cum gathering coming up..and hope many of them can turn up.

Lastly wana thanks the organiser for making this possible and had to come up with all sorts of white lies in order not to make me suspect her. But i want to tell this person something. Hope your lie can be a true one cus i care.

Ps: Hey kaho if you reading this again wana thank you for your B day card. And when you coming back? Why you are unreachable? Dont go MIA again. What are friendship for? take care

Vesak Day & Mother's Day
Hi guys back to blog again. Must be wondering why i didnt blog for the past 2 weeks hee. Well, lazy and no time but i will still remember what to write.Anyway 12 May was Vesak day and guess what i did? Went to Macritchie for a good 12km walk with my siblings & good friends.But the primary objective was to walk the new built bridge haha. At first we thought it would be a long walk across bridge to the other end but was actually was quite short distance haha. Or Maybe we walk too fast?The fact was quite short la. No point built a very long one too when you dont take your time to look at the beautiful green scenery. As usual sharon wei sheng Jun Rong sure capture some nice scenery & some unknown pictures which u wont know when they took it. Yet we were ready & fast enough to anticipate their camera action taking haha;p After the long walk we went to Whampo market to have our lunch & bought two stalk of carnation flower one for my mom another for my aunty as one of our mother's day gift. Sadly, that day mei lian oso lost her retainer which she carelessly misplaced on the table and when she went to look back was already been cleared off by the food cleaner:( I felt sorry for her cus we know how important the retainer is to us.And once u lost it you got to pay for it and buy another set which would cost her 150 bucks! While no choice, take it as a small lesson hee.

The later part was we went to KTV and ended our whole Vesak day outing there.
To be continued....

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?

Your True Love Is a Cancer

Why you'll love a Cancer: Cancer's loyal and sincere heart makes your own sensitive heart melt. Caring and devoted, a Cancer will take the lead in pursuing you - and not give up! Why a Cancer will love you: You're laid back enough to deal with Cancer's little mood swings and freak-outs. A fellow homebody, you know how make Cancer comfortable and at home with you.

What Sign Is Your True Love?

Back From Genting HighLand & KL

Finally my soul is back from vacation. Really njoyed myself with my precious friends. It was an amazing and unforgettable trip. Hope there will be another one coming soon which we plan maybe to Thailand Bangkok!! A shopping paradise and a cultured country. And it will be my second time to there if we really plan to go. So hope it will come true okie guys? But after back from msia i had a BIG SICK! I got VIRAL FEVER which the doctor had diagnosed -_-" Eventot to me it dont really seems serious but the doctor still advice me better to take 2 days mc incase i might spread my virus to my colleagues. Well for the well being of my colleagues of cos i had to heal her advice if not i would be the culprit if anyone of them fall sick like me. Touch wood. Anway i am alright now but still under recovering and hope everyone oso must take good care. I hereby wana thanks my friends during the vacation cus if not for you all this trip wont have been a success and hope it can be better as we can continue and plan more of such holiday trip. Hence, not forgetting my friend Kaho is back from HK! Hope you have relax enough and bring back a brand new you. Like what you have mention in ur blog^^v. Take Care my friends!

Genting & KL we are coming!

Yeh tonight i will be leaving to the place above and so looking forward to it. altought it may sound just a short trip but it will be a special one because my big of Good buddies, pei wen mom n aunty will be joining us too. This will be our 1st time to gather in such a big group going to stay together and have fun all the way thru. Hope everyone will enjoy this special trip. Cya guys!

Dearest friends

For those who once had a broken heart, here is a few encouraging quote which will heals your heart..

Moving on is simple,
it's what you leave behind that makes it so difficult.If someone you love hurts you cry a river, build a bridge, and get over it.

Forget the times he walked by,
Forget the times he made you cry,
Forget the times he spoke your name,
Remember now your not the same.
Forget the times he held your hand,
Forget the sweet things if you can,
Forget the times & Don't pretend,
Remember now he's just your friend.

No Guy Is Worth Your Tears &
When You Find The One That Is He Won't Make
You Cry

That's all folks..

Dont Judge a person by it's lOOk?

And is true!! Many a times people only look at the surface and base on their 1st judgement to conclude someones character. And often their judgement is inaccurate. Sometimes looks can be deciving and untrue about someones personality. For example if the person looks dark in his/her complexion with a stern feature, does that mean he/she is a fierce person? To me of cos 1st impression does agree tat he or she must be fierce type. If you want to know the answer is better you start talking to that person and from there u slowly conclude whether wat you assume match with wat you have experience? So people is better tat you speak up and break the preception of judging a person by their 1st look. I've experiment before jus by judging on one person looks. But i always believe that people who look stern or cool are the people with the biggest heart! And indeed it is true! Those i met does have a true big heart. Neverthless, they are also the ones who are very detail and caring in small matters.
Here a quote for you guys which i totally agree with:

The Original Version

If you Love someone
Set him free
If he comes back,he's yours
If he doesn't, he never was yours

ps:Actually there is a few more version of that. Will update some other time.Have a nice day

Jenny Yang
Bu Gong Ping

zou le na me yuan
fa xian ni bu zai shen bian
du zi zou guo le shen me zi ji dou bu liao jie
wei lai de lan tu ying gai you ni bu gai zhi sheng tan xi
zhi shi ou er lei liu bu ting

# jian qiang de li you
zhi shi zi ji pian zi ji
ni yan zhong de kong ju shuo shen me dou duo yu
fu chu de yi qie zhi bu shi de yong yuan bu hui you da an
zhi you tian zhi dao wo you duo me ai ni

[Chorus:]
yi ke xin shu yu yi ge ren
zai ai qing li shen me suan gong ping
ai de shen ye shang de shen
shi bu shi zui mie le zi ji
yi ke xin shu yu wo zi ji
ai qing li zhao bu dao gong ping
er dang ni zui hou xuan ze le tao bi
wo xue hui bu gong ping

back to # then chorus

Pulau Dayang(3th-5th)Friday to Sunday
Hey guys! i'm back from my diving trip. The best part wasnt the getting of Open Water Certification Dives, but the process i've gone thru had given me the drive to pursue more dives. Thru more dives then allows one to gain more experience and getting use of the dive technics.Initually i was quite nervous bcus it would be my 1st time to dive under the big sea. Unlike jus 2 meters swim in spore pool haha. But i keep on remindin myself there is nothing impossible for me to do it unless i physically unfit. Yet i've did it! My sis n bro oso did it. I knew deep inside their heart they are oso nervous like me haha jus don wana express out keke. We kept quiet b4 the dive start maybe to keep ourself mentally n physically prepared*(serious). If only u are calm n steady i believe there is nothing u cant do it.The sea can be very big until there is different name for each site. We manage to dive at Langbay,Cebukang,Dayang tip and another one dont know the name hee but the deepest we dive is only 18 meters cus we r stil new. Eventually i manage to spot NEMO! So cute n small. there is a few times i keep sinking down due to my breathing pattern not very regular haha n knock onto the corals and some sticks haha.Can see some scratches on my legs. But is nothing if we are able to see n experience marine life.The Blue and clear sea was beautiful if only my friends could join too. But is not too late. Always let me know if u r prepared to take up this course. Will be waiting for u guys okie? Last but not least i wana thanks our REN SCUBA Diving instructor Glenn,Eddy,Danny and Jeremy who never fail to guide us and share many diving experience with us. Hope can go for another dive soon....

::Diving Lesson::
Today was my practical lesson as a beginner for leisure diving. Is is quite fun when u are with ur wet gear, mask and diving equipment on. But when you get down of the water the feeling is totally different. Different as in you got to breathe differently carrying ur oxygen tank and regulator in ur mouth. Everyone was tryin to get "used to" the using of just the mouth to inhale n exhale normally without using the nose. Read up diving book n u wil know why in more detail hee..The 1st stage was clearing of mask which needs to concentrate on ur exhaling of air from ur nose when u lift a bit of ur mask to clear the water inside whenever there is foggy and may obstract a clear view. The 1st attempt everyone didnt make it cus it was still new to us. But subsequently as we get hold of the skil we r able to do it hee. Really need to focus n think. The instructor say there is no right or wrong if you feel it is comfortable to do it at ur own way but some may need advance professional training. But through out the lesson Eddy our instructor name always remind us the most important 1st step MUS BE " Ai Zai" (hokkien) meaning be steady and calm . Dont panic or feel stress. Well his funny cus mayb he don wan us to feel pressure during the training. Yet i agree tat one mus be calm inorder to think and perform the right skill when u r at a lost. Dont every feel panic or scared if not everyting will goes wrong bcus of ur anxiety. Hope the actual day will run smoothly for me although is a challenge n exposure to the big sea. Yet as a new diver we may somehow feel a bit excited when we are goin to see the sea marine life haha.Hope tat day i'm able to pass my theory test too so sian hav to study-_-" If anyone of u really interested and have the money n time pls let me know i can always help u guys fix everything. But provided tat u r keen to dive.

愛回溫 - 溫嵐
今年忘了約你去看木棉
認識你的第六年夏天
感覺本來就是微妙又難言
而時間卻容易生倦
我們之間越來越遙遠

＊最近天空總是懶懶灰灰
提不起勁的浪漫要怪誰
習慣是對生活的一種妥協
而時間卻讓我學會
難過時關上門　一個人流眼淚

＃就讓愛回溫　我說親愛的陌生人
這一段旅程　是我們回憶的重溫
一個純樸小鎮　兩個小小戀人
管不住青春　愛自由的延伸
一個吻　一個永恆　坐看星星點亮燈

＋就讓愛回溫　〔我說〕再見了陌生人
這一段回程　讓所有感覺再沸騰
一個溫暖眼神　兩個微笑的唇
不必去追問　誰愛誰比較深
我們在　愛的過程　回頭看是單純
往前看是誠懇

One Last Cry
Why one last cry? Is a very sad song. But only people whose feeling emotional and confuse will understand the meaning of this song. Is true tat we gotta be strong
Cause round us life goes on and on whatever the past we had gone thru. After carefully listened to this song my tears rolled down. Probably the one who sent me this song made me felt sorry in my heart.Nevertherless, is not the end of life yet. Cherish the moment and love people around you more know how to appreciate and understand. bless ya...

Hows everyone this week end?
Seems like time is flying very fast. Soon i will be graduating and not very sure wat i gonna do next even tot i have plan in mind. Many things just happened like tat even without me realise it. I just hope everything will run smoothly for all my friends and close one out there. May the light lead the right path to ur expected destination. Cest la Vie

Is there something wrong with my blog?

::Has anyone been better?::

Did everyone of you njoyed urself last nite? Well i believe eventot yesterday is not everyone's day but to everyone is still a day for giving , loving and sharing to ur close ones. Even for just one day yet it can make a big differences for tat special moment an unforgettable one . Glad to say tat i've got my close fren to keep me company and really thanks him very much. Even though it can be a short moment but it means so much to me tat life is still wonderful if we meet the right person at the right time. Timing and chance is very important which we can not deny. Sometimes we really need to give ourself time to appreciate the small details of life surrounding us. As time goes by many things will be catching up and there is no way we can turn back the time. Live is too short to lose. Stay cheerful and positive my friends...

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?
A new layout
Well since is a new year so i've got my blog a new layout too and not bcus my previous one not good enough, is just not to let my friends and those who have viewed my blog to feel bored with the old layout. I am pretty satisfy with this layout cus is simple and detail enough. Now u guys can add some comments on my story unlike my previous template no comments haha. And wana wish those married, attached and people who longed to be love a HAPPY VALENTINES DAY. For this special day is always good to appreciate ur love ones whom have given you endless care and support unconditionally wherever you are and whatever you are doing. May everyone be filled with bundles of love and numbers of joy! LOVE IS IN THE AIR..SMILe. My dear friends sorri i cant join you guys for this VAL day. Hope you guys njoy urself.

A Good Man Produces Good Deeds From a Good Heart

A Good Man Produces Good Deeds From a Good Heart

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Njoyed urself during CNY?
Hi guys! i'm back to update wat i did for my CNY. Well nothing change and as usual will hav my reunion dinner steamboat at home with my parents and is the 2nd time we celebrate our dinner at our new home =0) The 1st day of visit was always the same must proceed to my mother side grandmother house then to my dad side grandmother house. And as usual will get more ang baos at my mother side one rather then my father one hee.. but the signifcant is still the same. Just a small lucky token for kids and those available one like me hee. Is like once in a year then you get to see your relatives gather together for some updating and sharing of small talks. And wana thanks to someone whose father buy me a dinner treat which was very generous of him. Is appreciative that at least ur friend or people who is close to you shared his or her joy with u. And is the best gift which u never tot you will get. Well is destinated that in lives u get to meet some nice people and nasty people. But the bottom line is you have learn tat human being by nature has their individual character if only u found the right person to share the right thoughts and views.I can say so far in my live most of the people i met had crossed my path and leave a deep impression in my soul. A new year a new beginning... Be strong n have faith in urself.

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Welcome 2006 and Chinese New Year
Hey people! Sorri for the extreme late updates of my daily stories. Well been very busy with many stuffs like x mas celebration, new year 2006 celebration and best of all the experience of night cycling under the heavy rain! For all tat i've done really no much words to say cus is jus incredible. I've enjoyed myself very much and hope my friends oso enjoyed themselves. Now preparing to celebrate our chinese new year lor. As usual need to do spring cleaning like throwing away the old stuff and welcome the new ones. Not forgetting to get new clothes for myself too haha.. Oh and wana thanks Kaho my classmate for visiting my blog too. Anyway you really need to update urs too cus since u have started it write so no point just to stop there n not continue rite?? i am sure there is many things for u to write in ur daily lives even just the moment u can still write something and share with us. Hope to see more writings in ur blog k! HappY CHinese New Year to U!

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School re-open & Harry Potter and the Goblet of Fire
Haiz school starts two days ago...well the timetable for Mon-Wed till 12.15 yeah but thursday and friday will suck my blood off till 4.15! Haiz tot friday near to weekend can go home early n rest instead it burns me off.Anyway hope this last semester will be a smooth one for me. Pray hard (cross my finger).Yesterday nite went to watch harry potter with my three good friend fel fel shan & Wen. Thanks to wen who manage to book our tickets in advance thru at her downstairs the AXS machine. She said she kept refreshing to check out the best seat for us which made her spent quite sometime n patient on staring the machine haha.Lucky her eyes didnt pop out. The seatings left not much but still managed to reserve quite a acceptable seats for the 4 of us.The view was good and just right,maybe a little bit uncomfortable with GV seats cus the back too low hehe. The movie i can rate 7/10 worth to watch if u like magic and u r a harry potter fan? Enjoyed myself with them.Hope there is another such outing again...cya gals..

Wat D haCk Am i DoInG?
Subaru Team Challenge
Hey guys i'm back..rest for 2 days really very tiring haha. Could say the challenge was a great experience for me. I did enjoyed myself and i didnt i am so lucky all the way till the lucky draw of orange ball. i must thank buddha for blessing me! The other participants had gone thru through heaty sun and heavy rain including myself. Is all about mentally prepared and will power. I've challenged myself to go to the extent of giving up my sleep just to play this torture game haha. I oso met interesting friends on the same Car6 as me n tat is a very encouraging one cus we keep tokin to each other n giving each other encouragement not to give up. Even tot one can do it, the other partener may not be able to take it. So it all takes team work to do it together. Keep encouraging each other to hang on. Lastly wana thanks to my family memebers who had stand by me jus to make sure i don fall till dawn haha. My er jie even gave up her sleep came to support me n her bf during the midnite time. Thanks so much. My friends even managed to came n see me esp tat pei wen screamin my name like nobody noes haa..very drama of her. Just wana thanks those who came to see me.
To my Brother: I didnt finished this year game, Next year you will do it for me Okie! Lets pray hard together...u will be jus as lucky as me!

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Wat a Mess...but a enjoyable one
Yday i went to take my salary, guess who i saw? My classmate n group project mate Tony! Surprisly i saw he 1st from far away. i actually waved my arms at him, but he seems like did notice was me =( So i walked towards him and say HI! he stay at the north area and came over my place to repair PC for his fren! And is free of charge! But i tink there is some kind of condition in between him n his fren haha.. He don seems to disturb me anymore haha...mayb he quite shocked met me at the mrt haha. His friend quite friendly and from wat his friend say they have noe each other thru online for so long! Tat means this friendship must be a very sincere one. My conclusion is this is call fate tat i can bump Tony at my place. Same goes to that day i bumped into FangHui inside the mrt train. So far i only bump this two person from outside instantly. Really is fate.

Next i reached the ofc, the boss and Agnes had already started the meeting. So i just listened to the other half. Same old problems and comments so doesnt affect me much. But from wat agnes share with me how i fair, i am quite disappointed haha. She knew i knew my weakness and strength. So she didnt say much. She just say if i need to listen to any conversation she will allow me to. So as to pick up some interesting line. I know my problem from very long time ago. Is just that i am not used to talk rubbish. Mayb for the job i need to talk rubbish liao. Luckily i manage to helped Wen take her pay. Before the nite she was full of anger and vent of e CO.for been unreasonable haha. But hope she oso can understand why the company is doing that. Must understand the company position too. Dont be angry why they do certain things. If base on ur own reason then who will understand them? There Is a win win situation, so don be so angry k.

After tat meet up the gals for SUSHI FEAST BUFFEt at FUNNAN CENTER. I long time never eat sushi so quite lookin forward to it. But at the same time i oso know i don eat much. so try to eat slow so tat i can enjoy different favour of sushi. It was quite a filling feast added with laughter and some sarcastic remark in between wen n Jun. HAha the two of them sure have something to argue about. But in a funny n harmless way. Soon after as we were walking out of the restruant, Meilian was walking hurrily to search for toilet. But before she can find the toilet, she vomitted on the floor! She vomitted all the things she ate. Just beside me a lady saw wat had happened and quickly gave me a packet of tissue to offer mei lian. So kind of her,I jus took one piece and said thanks. After that meilian went to wash up n reen was talkin inside the toilet. Seems like the toilet is a good place for doin many business haha. Unforunately, something happened again, and that was sharon eyes swallon! her right eye got some infection which she went to rub it. But she know her eye condition so soon after her eyes was back to normal. Later part we went to fort canning just to walk across to Plaza Sing cus Xiao Jun meetin her sis to watch HOUSE OF WAX R21 version. We saw Reen bf Jack at cArrfour. He had lose a lot of wt when we saw him. 10kg lost! can u imgine how hard he had tried to lose wt? tat is incredible. From wat i heard, he exercise so hard jus for his NS purpose, which was a very sensible way of doin. Cus most people lost wt for the same reason..Jus to look good in shape.

Lastly, i wan to say i am lookin forward to see shan shan new dog hehe.. what name did u gave him?

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Be happy..
Recently i went to pei wen graduation ceremony with May may at SP. Overall not too bad. The food was nice and just right for me cus i can only chew on soft food for i wear braces hehe.. Felt happi to share tat very moment with wen who got Merit certificate for her course. I guess she didnt expected she did so well but she do deserve it. Anyway tat day i am not actin weird, guess wen n may may tot i am not feeling good. But seriously i am like tat dont talk much one. So don misunderstand i am tired or wat okie? The day b4 we went to look for shan shan at parkway to borrow camera from her and she even gave us some of her facial product sample again. So pai sey everytime drop by will sure bring home with something from her. She looks a bit listless and don have the kind of radiant look which i think is due to lack of sleep. Hope u can take care of your health k shan..Dont worry too much of the Sales. i know u need to push hard on ur target. But dont give urself too much stress.. Jus do watever u can..jia you...

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Hi i m back..
Really dont know wat i have been busying with lately. After wen said was august 10 since i last update my blog. Then i realise time really fly very fast yet slow. For the past few weeks i had been busying at school, work and most importanly was preparing for my buddies b'day surprises. Well could say is quite a success even tot there was many miscommunication and worries.Hope you guys like wat we have done for you. 21st bday is once in a life time jus like marriage even tot some of us may not treat 21st as a big deal but is a significant key to our adult path. How we will be in the future is still a question mark. But what we want to be is not far away. So guys must dare to dream and work hard for your future. Many things can change in our lives but our friendship will never change just like the 1st time we became friends.

Not forgetting last nite my parents, brother and i went to bedok princess cinema to watch "shan ke hao ren" directed by Jack neo. I could say jack neo movie is always the cup of tea for singaporean. His movie always try to pass a massage to the public regarding what is happening in singapore. Could say is quite an educational show. If u guys dont look for sound effect kind of movie n budget, i suggest u can go there n watch. Mon-thurday 5 bucks Friday 6 bucks Sat n Sun 7 bucks. Quite worth it for such a movie i mean. We must learn to give ex-convict a chance...support the yellow ribbon..

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Computer Crash
Hi folks i'm back to update my blog. Recently my PC too sick until it broke down again. After taken medicine is back to normal again. PC is really like human. When we reach until a stage tat u can not take it anymore mus really take a break recharge and then move again. Our lifespan is very short only, so cannot affort to waste time and must start doing the things we truly love to do. Not forgetting to thanks Wen 4 sparin her little time to check my proposal. Will need ur help again hope u wont mind hehe.
And yesterday was SPore 40th bday!!! Wanna say Happy B day Spore! We will love you forever....Sad to say i didnt stay home to catch live telecast parade at home. Instead Wen Sheng Lian & me went to watch Bewitched. Overall rating was average only, still perfer the original cast and original bewitched series show. Really love to watch haha. Oh & not forgetting to say i was damn suay yesterday when i crossed my house the road traffic light, as i walk towards the hdb flat, there is this stupid men brief drop from the top right behind my head! I didnt know wat was it was until i turn back n look? I was so mad tat it is undergarment. I'm damn unlucky. But fortunatly nothing unusal happened to me on tat day. Lian bday coming still thinking wat to buy will suits for her 21th bday...

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Steamboat @ Marina South
Saturday went to Marina south with a few of my gOod friends for dinner. Tat nite i tot most of my friends will be joining. But never expect most of them last min can not make it. Wat a let down=( Or they don wan to give sharon face? haha For any reason i think some of them didnt make the effort to join us lor. But some really got to work or family gathering so is no choice. Not i want to say la...anyway only meilian, wen, sharon, wei sheng n siyong make it. Glad to see Siyong not long from his ns service. Heard he was jus an admin doing all the odd task haha. Kind of boring and no life. But no choice he got medical reason to be excused. Hope he can get into clerk which he rather to work in. Went out wif wen on sunday to get my jeans and her jeans. But she after searching for her suitable jeans she decided to go back to bugis and get the jeans which she had tried b4. Cus all the other jeans she got no eye for it even it fits her. Buying clothes is like chosing bf. U may get along wif each other doesnt mean you like tat person. So is better to decide for urself the right one if not is not fair for both party. Well, jus b happi wif wat u do and work hard for ur goal i believe life can be very meaningful and colourful. Have faith in ourself yeh...Gals jia you. An message for dearest shan shan: You are who you are. You dont live for the purpose of life is a life of purpose. One day u will know wat u want out of life,emotionally, materially, physically and spiritually. I wish to see happiness in ur face wif lots of vibrant on it k..miss u two take care..

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Feeling so emotional
Arhhhh..So emotional attacked last few days. I start to realise my poor attitude towards the things i have to do. But i guess is not the poor attitude which i produce. Should say i am more careful & concern about the things tat need to be done. Anyway i wont want to tok about it again. My feelings are settled and hopefully i can cultivate more inner strenght to withstand all kinds of problem i encounter and people who try to misunderstood me. Life is really a challange to us that in our daily live we must be able to handle it. If not the one who lose out is ourself.

Recently i am reading this Book title The Monk Who Sold His Ferrari. This is an excellent book which really teaches u how to be enlighten and gain wisdom when you think your life is meaningless and devastated. Anyone of you wana improve ur live should check out this book and start to learn the meaning of live before it is too late. Lastly, looking forward to meet up with wen n shan for the indoor stadium performance. See you gals okie...Miss ya

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My enlightening Days
For the last two week ends was rather a eventful one. Went to work as usual in e morning after tat went for my dental. Meet up with wen mei lian shu fen my FTMS fren and follow up by lilia n jason. We had to spend our taka voucher on tat saturday eventot we didnt seems to like very much of the things @ there. Well no choice my frens gave me taka voucher as my 21th bday gift. And so i have to use it to buy something which i like at there. Actually is very nice of them alrdy. 100 dollars shoppin voucher very hard to get haha. After tat we went 4 dinner at thai express with wei sheng later joined in. Forgotten tat he cant take spicy food yet e soft shell crab rice he ordered was a bit spicy. He didnt manage to finish hehe wat a waste. After all the night was a precious n nice one. I just felt the important of gathering with my friends. Time is really catching up, feel like there is no time to waste as age starts to grow older each year.

Sunday i had to help out at suntex city for my school The Bluesky carnival ACE. It was a fun exposure and experience. Learn how to play accounts board game created n designed by some of my accounts lecturer. Anyway i did asked a few of my frens to visit me at my sch booth to support the game. But only Pei wen turned up haha. Thanks for been so supportive. Got to go zzz will update again thanks gals for reading. Give me ur comments if there is anything i didnt mention correctly. HappY worKing

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Another weeK end...
I simply just like week end yippy..Always cant wait for week end to come. Reason is i can have more rest at home slack or meet up with my close friends yeh. Yesterday went to visit shan shan working counter which is BIOTHERM & had dinner with her and Felix. When i went to see her, she looks like working very well & bubbly in her work keke tot she may complain no life-_-" But i tot tats e kind of life she wanted? haha Anyway is not as boring or no life like wat she had told me. Basically she does many things in her job & i can see is not easy lor. Quite a professional job. Really needs training n knowledge on facial products. The best is she has a veyr good complexion really suits her job keke. Well s usual she will gossip bout her colleagues n some funny incidents she ecountered. Really makes me laugh whether i meet up wif her. A cheerful beauty advisor wor keke. Not forgetting she oso gave me a mini Lip gloss sample inside contain s 3 small different shiny colors. Thanks a lot^^v Wen dont envy me huh hehe u not so lucky when u go n look for her she is not working tat day keke. But shan feels bad wen u people went to look for her out of surprise yet she happens not working on tat day. So next time if anyone of you wana go n look for her, e best is msg her 1st check whether she is there or not? Wen i know you r sick. U really sound very sick when u called me. Dont know is it bcus tat day u had a quarrel wif ur dad cause ur sickness haha or ur ofc too cold? U better go n see doc. Dont have to save e medical money k? I oso don noe wat i can do cus i not a doc keke. But i will pray hard hope you can get well soon then the coming saturday we can go Taka and shop again. Really mus use the Voucher wor..haPPi worKing gals..

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Initial D
Yesterday after my work went to watch Initial D with mei lian and her poly friends. At 1st i dont intend to watch. But one of her friend last min told them she cant make it and they already bought the ticket so meilian suggested ask me whether i wana watch. From wat i know about the movie, those who had watch say is funny not bad should watch. Since i got nothing to do after work so i agree to join them watch lor. Afterall the movie storyline was simple and good to watch. That pei wen too lazy to come out and no interest to watch Initial D. Dont say never call her wor haha..Surprisingly guess who we met? Doreen and Bf again.. Seems like everyweek end we will bump into her at orchard road. But yesterday is at PS. She and her bf like to go orchard road shop lor. Actually spore oso nothing much to do la. She either go out with her mom or her bf.We hardly get to shop out with her. Probably only special occasion then you will see her with us. Shan hope you got the time to watch intial D if u r interested. Should watch hehe...

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An Excellent Story Book
Ever since i came back from China most of my friends felt that i am crazy bout China history cus they see my talking or behaviour a bit like China people. Well i still think i am still who i am even before i went to china n after i came back. But the China trip really had left me a great impression with their culture their better off chinese lauguage and most importantly their History. When i visited those places like The Forbidden City, the home of the Emperor. I was amazed by their building structher and the beauty of the place. From there i wanted to know the story behind this forbidden city. So i bought this story book title EMPRESS ORCHID by ANCHEE MIN. I could say she is a very Good story writer whom gave very detail story bout what is happening in the Palace. I started reading after i bought and as i read on, I was so addicted everyday n everywhere i am on my way to work or school i will read. The content inside was talking about the last generation The MANCHU who ruled China and how it came to and end. Empress Orchid as Tzu Hsi (pronounced "Tsoo Shee" and spelled Cixi in Pinyin) was born on November 29, 1835. Her clan name was Yehonala or Yehenara. Little is known about her background, but according to some accounts her father was a captain in the banner corps that guarded the emperor's home, the Forbidden City.

It was about how the Emperor ruled Peking. And some of the custom, tradition, rules and regulation that the empress, concubines,slaves, eunuch had to obey. Want to know bout the story? well u just have to go n check out the book. Is an excellent one i could say. Live as a empress or emperor is not easy at all. All i can say is the china rulling in the past was not smart enough which had cause the next generation to fall apart easily. But lucky China now is progressing and opening more to the foreign country. Yet i also admire their determination to fight hard against the westner. They may not have succeed. But they had earn the glory of their people even right now...

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End of My holiday=(
Well school gonna start next week. Dont know should i be looking forward or reluctant to go. Anyway wana thanks PEIWEN for visiting my blog. Now got an extra visitor tat means got more to write haha. Will write something bad bout you haha. On ur account i will write something today. Actually i dont have anything to write for today n the past few days but bcus of you then i write something lor. Well Shanx2 came to my house n We had enjoyed the nasi lemark she bought from bedok. Very nice of her. We chatted a lot and laugh a lot. Do you wan to know wat is it peiwen? haha don tell you. Will keep u in suspenses..keke. Haiz when school reopen mus prepare a lot of things n study harder. Really wish the time can fly faster. Will miss you peiwen and shanx2. Do contact me and cheer me up. You gals know la.. i think a lot when i am alone. Just need some support.. U gals too must work hard and play hard. Everything is a learning journey for us. So just do watever you can. Most imptly is happY.

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Last day for Taiji and Check my exam result..
Well today is the last day for our taiji. Too bad shanx2 cant turn up. She must be very disappointed. Cus among us she is the most keen on learning taiji. Anyway today oso the start for new intake on taiji. Two came a couples joined us. Well dont know why they wana learn but i guess they oso came to learn just like us, out of curiousity hehe...As for my result well could say i am satisfied but not too happy with it cus my IT didnt get A =( but i am glad i didnt get any C or D for this semster lor. Should say i am contented. Shan wish u all the best okie.. mus call me out when u r free...good nite..

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A Memorable Vacation
Hi guys...Just came back from China Beijing. Wow is really an eye opening for me. Lean a lot throught out this trip. Well esp negociation for price. Can bagain until u laugh haha.. most importantly i've make many true n sincere friends thru there and they had treated us like a guest tat we really felt pampered. Their kind and generous care really make us feel like staying at china and dont wana leave hehe.. but spore is still our home. Moreover we also learn how to adapt their culture which u will never get to see in spore,and tat was using their WC without DOOR. Esp the school gals toliet no doors!Was told tat it used to have doors but the student had damage the door bcus the toliet too squeezy until their door keep knocking to each other doors. So the school decided not to fix a new door and just let it be.Sad to sad their toilet bowl is only squat one,facing opposite each other lor. Well the people n student there is used to it. So is nothing to them. To us is a big big fuss which we felt we have lost our privacy. But i did try twice goin to piss without doors. Fun n interesting is all i can describe. Kinda of sleepy. MIss those days at China with my group of china guy friends. Hope they will do well in their coming exams...

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Going Off 1 june 2005
Well just wana say i am leaving this blog empty for a week. After tat will keep you guys updated when i am back. Kinda of tired dont know why. Take care Shanx2.Hope when i am back you have found a job k. MIss ya..=)

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Pulau Ubin & Sky Garden
My continue part. Went Pulau Ubin wif those same group of buddies except lilia and shanx2 didnt join. Well their reason is acceptable. And is advisable they dont go is better. The cycling there was really an eye opening one. If given me another time to go there i may consider again hehe. But the mosquitoe and sun really sting and shine on us constantly. Fortunately, everyone wore cap & applied block lotion to protect our own skin from getting burn hehe. The whole trip estimated cost me ard 15 bucks wor. Not cheap at all just to travel to there n experience such venture. But really is a fun trip. Nothing much beautiful scenery to see but i guess we njoyed the cycling process cus is really very exciting haha. Lastly is i wana thanks my group of Best frens making the small effort to give me such a surprise advance Bday mini celebration. I was really surprised and shocked when i saw them arrange everything nicely jus to make me happi b4 i leave to China. Shanx2 played a very big role by luring me to meet up wif them when i don even know! Her white lie had make me believe every of her motive lor. She kept me in suspenses but i never tot wat a big surprise. Cus the gals n guys stayed over nite at Pulau Ubin & shld b staying at home resting n sleepin like a pig. I really appreciate their turn up n all the surprises they had given me. This will remain the most memorable 21th Bday for me. I will never forget this day guys...I always agree tat frens r the best. And i have truely met a group of loyal and wonderful frens. Thanks again for everything. I suppose Shanx2 will keep u guys update with the pictures we have taken. Well i dont think yesterday i am in a gd form cus i dress so casual n simple looks so dirty haha. Anyway njoy reading..

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I'm all Right...
Well yesterday and the following day went out wif my gal frens. On the 27 may went to get my pay wif Shanx2 then meet up wif 3 of our gd buddies at Orchard rd. So glad to meet up wif them esp Mayx2. She has always been the less often person to meet us out. Finally after her graduation she is very free liao. Anyway just shan if u reading this, just wana let u know i am fine, very fine. Just bcus i ask a few question from u all, u all start imagine things,tot something happen to me. Thanks for been so sensitive. Well i am jus tired after my last paper. Those exams period is kinda of busy. Study n work tats why i look listless. But nothin is on my mind. I jus felt tat i am running out of time. When i see everyone of u graduated. Just feel empty in my mind. I then realise life is short. Really short. I really treasure those gd days we spend togther. I love my friends. U all are the best. I will never ask for much just to have you gals around. I will miss Shanx2 making the extra effort to wake up a bit early come down to my bus stop n take the same bus wif me to school. I really appreciate her. Will miss her when sch opens. Goin to work now. Continue later part in the evening...

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Finally today is my last paper! Have been looking forward for this day to come wor. Cus most of my classmates whose close to me end their paper earlier than me. Different module lor. But i still prefer my Banking module. The exam is not as difficult as i tot. Able to manage each and every question without brainstorming my brain hehe. I guess i did studied hard for this module plus Mr Sim who gave us a few tips which allows us to focus on those more important ones. Hope can get an A for this. Even didnt get i oso wont b upset cus i guess many of us is able to do this paper. And will need some moderation since so many student is able to score well. Now jus looking forward for my China student exchange programme & meet him.

21/05/05 My Cousin Special Ocassion
This day was my cousin special ocassion. His wedding tea ceremony which held in the morning at his house but i didnt attend coz i got to work. Even if i went i am not the one servin tea to them cos my aunty say no need. So tat he oso can save up his angbao. We went to his wedding dinner on the 21.05.05 located at Grand Copthorne WaterFront Hotel where ZOUK is oso located beside it. Well is just a simple wedding dinner i could say. Just 10 tables and each table consist of 10 person. But each table cost ard 800 plus leh. Not cheap lor. But my uncle paid for his wedding dinner. Who tell his son not capable haiz.. The best part was, his wife dressing was so happening! Her hair style until like a big bomb messy and long. 1st time i saw bride's hair style so happening n interesting one. At least not boring like normal neat straight hair keke. Their wedding video clip oso very daring and creative lor. Kissing posting laying posting adn wild posting. Nevertot my cousin n her wife so happening one. But i can feel tat my relative not very happy with his wedding. They dont really like their marriage in the 1st place. They felt tat the gal married to him bcus she see him got a rich family and tat oso means my cousin wil b rich haha. But she is wrong la. Anyway i don like to gossip but such thing. I just think tat is not wrong to marry to a rich guy lor. Which gal don have the intention to marry t a rich men? Just don flirt ard la. Gtg work liao.. Happy Vesak Day!

20/05/05 My mother's B' Day

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This day is my mother's b day. Suppose my siblings and I tot of bringing my mom out for dinner and is on us. But my Si yi suggested to go resturant have dinner. Reason is my grandma my cousins and cousin in law can join us too. We reserve just one table so is not tat costly la hehe. After all is my mom threat. Well we went to Qan Si resturant located at katong complex which is nearby my place only. Just walking distance can reach there. Both my sisters bf oso joined us. When we reached there, there was a wedding dinner on the same day same spot. So our room is rite behind the wedding dinner hall. Can say tat this day was very occasional day. One was my mom bday another was A newly wed couple wedding. So nice. I did enjoyed the whole dinner and i hope they enjoyed too. since there is laughter and jokes during our dinner hehe.. shall go n zz..nite...

: : Monday Blue : :

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Today is my 1st paper for Com Biz. Well didnt manage to complete in a correct formate lor. Very confused by the questioned. But glad able to finish on time. When to taiji after tat. Lena and Pei wen did not attend because they need to study for their impt last paper. So hopefully next next week they are able to catch up. Anyway today never really learn much. Just a few new steps the rest is repeated steps. So i think should be no problem for both of them. Tmr and the following day will have to study n practice for my Accts paper. Hope dont give too many adjustment. Very headach one=( gtg zzz...

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This is rather interesting. I saw shan result n was quite surprise! But i tink she n golden retriever really can click. This is mine...

You Are a German Shepherd Puppy

Intelligent, quick witted, and a bit aggressive. You've got the jaw power to take a bite out of anyone you choose.

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

Happy Mother's Day

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Today is Mother's Day!!! Actually we had planned to hav a mini celebration for my Beloved Mom & 4th Aunty who is staying beside us. Right now we are officially neighbours alrdy yeh...We hang balloons at my aunty roof top,make cocktail and some sweet pastry for them. Well is a special one i could say. Bcus is our 1st time celebrating at our new home & with my aunty hehe.. Hope there is more to come next year.. bery tired gona zzz...

Fish & Co.

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Yesterday went Fish & Co. with Lena for dinner. Despite the rain we still meet up to eat. This shows tat if u got the heart no matter wat happen, u will still go and do it yeh. Really enjoyed myself with Lena company who suggested to go there n eat. Is my 1st time. Well i wwould rate it 4/5 not too bad. After tat we went to see cute doggies hehe. I realise tat small dog looks really very cute. It was the same s wen we r small kids we oso look very cute n adorable likeable by everyone. But when we grow up is a totally different change liao keke. Some pretty some average some can not make it =(. Dogs oso the same when grow up not cute anymore and is a bit scary hehe. The strange thing is Lena actually like big dogs wor hehe..mayb esp the golden retrevier only(don noe how to spell) keke. I even bought an umbrella wor for 13 bucks. Eventot is not cheap but i still like it la. Have to buy if not cannot shelter rain this few days keke. tata...

Labour Day & A New Blog

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Wee...IS labour day. Well did nothing much in the morning. Went to wash car wif my sis and after tat had a mornin fruits session cum family meeting expect my dad. Current topic was my cousin owed money case. Lucky is settle if not he sure to b DEAD! My mom main aim was my brother keke. Give him some preaching and lecture not to learn from my cousin to gamble cus we r not rich haha cant affort to Help him pay up debts so he better don gamble! Gamble really sucks lor. Cause so many unhappiness,death n more. After tat we went Sims Drive market to have our breakfast cus later on we goin nearby the Bighton Furniture House to buy sofa. I saw May May in the market. Wat a coincidence.Anyway she stay ard there so is common to see her there. She so hardworking do all the marketing herself. Wat a caring n sensible daughter. Really got to learn from her. And not long ago i finished creating a new blogskin. Simple n nice. I like the color contrast very much n not forgetting the beach pic so relax.